No. 302 The Lack of Urgency and Racism

Over the past couple of days, I have developed a sense of un-urgency is that is such a word. I really don't care anymore, I care enough to want a good grade, but I am no longer in that place where I am constantly panicked, instead, I feel like I was once an ADD kid who took an adderall and am now completely calm and serene as if I was drinking some green tea on the beach of Cozumel or something...

What is kind of scaring me though is my sense or perception of racism. I never even though of my self as a "minority" when I was little and living in a "majority" world. Now, I live in a world that is full of minorities and the majority has ceased to be such a big majority. The odd thing is that I feel like either A. people have become more racist and/or B. I am constantly freaked out if I don't see "my people" around because like Lifetime instills the notions from their movies that gays get dragged off in trucks and killed, transsexuals aren't viewed upon badly and latinos get a bad wrap for not talking "white." I don't know, it's like these people have all these views and they're so complex, like whatever happened to a live where you just live to live, not to live to ponder everything like why that person put that comma there when it would have been better to put a period in the same spot and start a new sentence. Anyways, so some countries are persecuting minority groups. It happens all over the world, Tibet, China, Egypt, all over the place...and it dawned on me that some people can't differeniate between what happens in a country and that the government should be blamed of that specified country and the notion that "you people are to blame." For instance, say Lucy Liu is Chinese, but she or "you people" are not to be blamed for the issues going on with Taiwan and Tibet. Like, I don't think Lucy Liu or "her people" are somehow indirectly harming the people in those countries. Yes, Lucy is Chinese, but it's not like she is PM and she is doing that or it's not like she started the cultural hatred or stigmas of a particular nation. It just dawned on me that for 4 years of my life, and for many others, people still can't differentiate between what a government is doing and what "you people are doing" to some other race, group, country etc. It kind of saddens me, and that's all I have to say, but the fact that no, it's not "me or my people" that have done those things to "your people." What really is to blame is not "people" but the institutions, stgimas, government, cultural attitudes, tones, underlying conditions that are to blame for what has happened to "your people." It is not your people against my people, it's against something greater that is an institution, body of governance, deep set conditions etc.