No. 298 Everything

It feels like I really need to blog because there are so many things on my mind, a first in many of my feelings in a long time...

My Super Sweet Sixteen-Aaron Reid and the whiny black on black manny lover pseudo independent girl but still using dad's cash hating center piece crying genie in a bottle
Tiara Girls-"I care about my homework..."
President Hu
Bad Drivers

Aaron Reid, and I guess this can go for the Tiara Girls, I realized that all these shows are so tasteless, yet so lovely. Ok, um, Aaron Reid use to live in Atlanta and moved to Manhattan, weird, obviously not part of the hip hop dynasty from the beginning in Manhattan. Second, I hate how he says, "i'm not happy here..." like someone is suppose to move earth for that, come on, and calling your party planner to talk to your dad and having your dad yell at the party planner does not help.

Tiara girls, the dad goes, "you are not going to worry about homework" referring to how she has to concentrate on her opening comments. So, basically, you're telling the girl that she doesn't need school and that pagents are going to be like her life and she can lead a successful happy life. I don't thikn so because a. she ain't that hot b. she don't have that much personality c. I wouldn't even tell Jay Z that he should not go to college and just do his rap thing. Come on, and yea that opening comment was 30 seconds, I don't think that you need to tell your daughter that she should stop homework and focus on pagent stuff, ok, and that family is going to have issues when she can't get a legit job.

Also, the thing is that these families also the new Super Sweet Fifteen girl, they're all rich, but classless. They all have these giant houses, but they are literally in the middle of no where and just look like mass buildings of mansions, I mean, mansions are suppose to be individuals and like grandiose, they're missing elements like landscape architecture etc. and if I have to look at one more coach bag I think I will scream. God, seriously, all I see is the coach, ocassional louis vuitton and like that's it or maybe a little burberry, I mean there needs to be other stuff, and not a hermes birkin yet.

Bad drivers are all around the place and for the ugly teal car that almost hit me today, how dare you, I hope you realize what you did after my incessant honking and flashing of lights. You didn't even say, "sorry with a hand signal" and that was wrong. Karma people.

Ugh, I hate that stupid amber alert blah blah blah alert, what alert is suppose to be bad or good, i'm so confused, is orange higher than amber or is amber like the be on your toes but sitll alert or is there such a thing with red alert, I mean, I don't even know the colors. All I know is that um certain government officials couldn't get to the right location, certain officials scared the crap out of kids and old ladies by failing to FULLY STOP at a stop sign-this comes from a place where we break for ducks, not run them over, and also why couldn't they get an area for protesters instead of them spilling into the street. Jesus, I felt more on end then when President Bush came by.

Also, so watching Tiara girls, the girl didn't make top 10, she's devastated, and people tell her, "she did her bad and you didn't do anything wrong" no you didn't do anything wrong but you don' thave what it takes, one part is genes another part is luck among other things, I mean i'm not trying to be mean, but she just said she has Ds in school for pagents, come on man. Anyways, but seriously, look at your parents-parents are hot, come on man, and you don't really have a personality...even worse, and your body is hot but it ain't so hot like it needs to be more toned, that's why you didn't win, sorry, and she I guess realized that too as she says she won't be competing either.

Don't get me wrong though, I still watch all of this crap, but it's like I guess really rich classful people won't ever go on television you know, or if they do, they're kids are at least restrained or the parents aren't really on tape a lot you know. This season, everyone just is so whiny, it's like, ok, why are you so pissed about some little detail, I mean, you shouldn't be pissed for anything cuz there is nothing you can do and it's like, whatever, it's your party and just rock on you know.

Just like Paris Hilton said that she asked for a boob job and her dad said it would cheapen her image. Yes, i'm sure those Tiara girls would be like, "dad I need a boob job!!!" Dad says, "I'll call the doctor..." COME ON MAN.

Also, what is with asian ladies marry white men or different race men. Apparently the only one sthat do marry the other meat are people who are classless and just use the men as what can we say, "digging for gold..." Come on man, and the asian ladies aren't even hot and resemble maids. Is that what they want?

Ugh...then I always ask myself how some asian groups just gravitate towards each other and how is that? I mean, what makes them seem so assured and etc. So, then I overheard this conversation about how blah blah blah, "yea my dad just gave me ___ amount of money today" blah blah blah, ugh, people people people, please don't talk about money. Maybe with friends of Asian decent it's like one rich kid, some that are semi well off, and like they all hang out and talk about this stuff, I mean I really don't discuss any of this you know. And also, I don't think my dad has ever given me "money from his pocket" and doesn't just whip out 100 bills, but um, they're usually deposited in a checking account or like you use your credit card to buy things and get expensed back to the person appropriate to paying for it...Weird people, and speaking of weird...

So, apparently way back when in the summer my cousin had hinted that I can go to London and stay at her place whenever she wants. I don't even ask anymore because it's not even plausible, except that for once, being the stupid idiot that I am, got excited and thought I could go, then which my father said, yes, you can go if you get a 3.8 out of a 4.0 scale in college. Ok, I go to a school that is ranked no. 1 by some-obviously skewed, and then ranking at least top 50 if not top 37, come on man. So yea, basically that is like "no you're not going" regardless of what my dad says that upper level classes are easier, yes, 300 levels are easier and so are 200 levels, but not 100 levels, but 400 levels are on a different scale, including a professor who once said that 500 pages of reading a week is to not be alarmed. Yes, I'm not sure I can read 500 pages of reading and get a 3.8, come on man, and what the fuck, 3.5 is already A-, what is with 3.8, why don't you say 3.9-4.0. CHRIST MAN, so then he brings it back up and I said, "can you handle it" i'm not getting a 3.8, I got a 3.75, and he was like, "yea..." but I think he just said it out of a moment of weakness, I don't know WHY though, but come on, so yea, of course, being the stupid puppy that I mean, is like, "OMG do I have a chance?" At first I was like I can't go with my parents, they're old and they don't get to go places lots too, well big places and I'd love to share it wit them, but then i'm like, " no, i'm taking all the opportunities I can get." This is especially alarming because it gets really confusing when people say that they can "handle things" like education caring for someone, but excess stuff they can't handle but then Fed Ex shows up with like a good 5 figure priced thing that you can't eat, drink, play or do anything with but like stare at it, from a far and don't sneeze on it, but then it comes to a point where you like just can walk all over silk rugs with your dirty shoes on and it's ok, but then another day it's not ok to even hang your coat on a chair that rain is dropping from coat to silk rug-god for bid right, that's why, so confusing for myself, You can never win...

Speaking of winning, god, I am so skewed and I hate how some professors are so skewed. I had this prof who taught India relations. Or more specifically South East Asia relations, I should have known she was skewed because seh could only talk about India. She basically implied that India is a bigger threat than China, India is apparently smarter-literacy rate wise and they all speak more english and are richer than the Chinese. Then why does the CIA World Factbook say that China's GNP is 6,000 plus and India's is 3,000 USD. Ok...then I look at literacy rate, um, India is 59% and China is 90%. Sorry India if you were a British colony and that's why your english has an accent, which is some how important. Come on man, so yea, that class was so skewed, not that I am pro-China or Pro-US, but come on man, state the facts CORRECTLY even though they don't have a caste system or whatever, but what stops the still racial divide among people because i'm sure a rich kid wouldn't marry a poor one, it's not Romeo Juliet, and if it were, it's like one in a million. Come on man, sometimes Indians are cocky son of a bitches, I mean, it's like they work at some high-tech company and that automatically makes them the shit, but let me tell you, you are still no one in the United States. This is the land of dispoable income and hard migrant workers. Yes, that goes for you gardeners too and how in Farmingville, NC all those people feel inadequate and don't feel like they belong in the US, it's because you do, it's the stigma, it can't be erased-yet that is. Oh, and also keep in mind the prof wasn't from India.

Yea, so it got me kind of pissed, but ugh, whatever...oh and I hurt my back, I don't know how, but it's like kind of swollen and definitely hurts. Ugh, in utter pain, god damn man, is this Karma? Maybe it was fate saying I can't clean my closet and it's best to start all over...

Ugh, sleeping now....EVERYTHING better not be hateful anymore.