No. 198

OK, i'm back, and well I just didn't exit out of the broswer, so i'm here again, exactly two hours later, I published at 6:36 and i'm back here at 8:36. Weird huh.

Ok, so I figured out why 9/11 really doesn't matter to me, I mean as an American it should right, but i'm not going to cry and feel sad because i'm SUPPOSE to, i'm going to do it because I want to. I realized that i've never really taken anything for granted, I've lived with a knowing of what can happen what will happen right, and I guess, well I know, that there are alot of people who don't know, that's why when they see the twin towers fall, they're shocked and horrified and they don't know what to think. I mean, in some ways, i'm like my parents, hardly affected by the wars they've gone through all the stuff. We take it like a grain of salt. I mean, we don't connect so closely to things and people that it makes it so devasted. And there's a whole lot of other reasons why I don't "mourn," but they probably won't be published for some time, say a couple of years. BTW: I'm still watching Elton, I love that name and god he is so British.

I have a problem.

Luggage, like that damn duffle I bought and was hella proud does not fit all my shit, what am I gonna do? I also don't get how my mother managed to put everything into her tiny suitcase and she has more stuff then I do. Yes, i'm not filled with grief, i'm filled with, "how am I going to carry this stuff up to the Canadian border?" I do have a question though, is Osama "dead or alive?" I mean, seriously, i'd like to know, it's been a year and he's been in hiding. I mean, imagine that man, living for a whole year being afraid, being driven away, not having what we have or what the other people cooking vast amounts of oil have. I mean, the guy is literally running every night and plotting having nothing, but what is going to be his demise, once he puts his men and weapons out there, they're going and they'll never come back, he won't get more at one point or another, and will he just die or will he live in fear for the rest of his life running and running again? I mean, yes Mr. Texan, we all know about the whole we want him dead or alive, but do you think we know where he is, hell no, so Mr. Wild West better take action and it better not be war because A. It's too late, B. we're kind of wimpy and as a nation of obesity, i'm not quite sure who would sign up, oh and C. you'll just give them more peanut butter, rice, and oil, which will cut into our expenses even more and say, we're not fighting you Afghanys, we're doing it for Osama, one guy in a large area. Whatever, that's my last word, whatever...