No. 196

I guess i'm continuing right, well for one thing, i've actually become really close now with my friends, a lot more then I have when I was actually in school. I mean, I was sitting there, eating Thai food with my best azn homie g and my other friends and I was like, this is so SATC, but you know, the WA version. I mean, I was happy. See, I realize all that high end designer dior shit doesn't do anything for me, it just makes me more cynical and oh so like "where do you stand in society" deal. I hate it, that's what I realized. I mean, in SF and how I was hanging out with all these people that didn't judge me, I was happy and I didn't give a damn about Gucci. Seriously, and the fact that all those people are multi millionaires, it's quite shocking too. I mean, you figure right, life's deceiving.

Ok, so right now, yes it's Friday night. Yes, i'm at home, again. It so happens that my Friday's are always free and my Thursday's are always booked. How ironic right. Oh yea, and FYI: like anyone cares, but Tweet got fatter it looks like or she just keeps wearing unflattering white. She's singing this song about "smoking cigarettes." It's what she does after a breakup. I realize everyone tells me is horrendous and how bad it is, but yet everyone does it, well I mean, not everyone, but I mean, movers do it, shakers probably just don't inhale. Jennifer Aniston, Laura Flynn Boyle, what was it, someone really shocking smokes, oh and BBMak smokes too. I mean, seriously, and everyone's like it's horrid. Well, tell them and it's not like LA's no smoking restaurants stops them anyways. I realized Puffy doesn't puff, I think he just smokes cubans because he feels it's more manly. I read this short story on some blog I forget, just randomized and found it right?! The guy was talking about how he finds cigarettes to be so unmanly, yet it looks manly when James Dean does it... It's true though, it's to slender for someone like Shaq to be puffing on, I mean, it'd seem kinda weird, that's why we always see him with a cuban not a litte white stick. Speaking of those cancer things, I'm reading this book called the Confessions of a Ex-Girlfriend. It's like SATC, they just don't smoke, but the voice is very true to Candace Bushnell. It's quite uncanny, and interestingly, it's better then the SATC book.

My Secret Fear...

OK, so I have 600 then 3500 minutes on my cell. They said that now Cingular rollovers minutes. When is it that i'm going to get cancer from it, I just want to know? Seriously? When, a year or five... That's why i'm using that dorky little earpiece thing that sucks and you get shitty reception, but i'm using it. That would be sad if I died like that right?

Oh, and i'm not a Dior Addict, i'm repulsed by their makeup. Who makes the buyer put in their own screen for a powder substance. Normally it comes already like it right?

FYI: Yes, I'm going to wash my hair... Oh, and as the freak that I am, i'm going to go into my closet and try on all my stuff and just wear it around the house. Why? Because I can, oh and i'll be doing that while listening to my dance/techno station and drinking my zero calorie drink of choice, Aqua, H20, water, whatever, and no it will not be designer or imported, it's straight up tap and no, I don't live in a trailer (reference to Kid Rock's song).