No. 78

My home girl is in town!

I'm back from the gym. All of a sudden there is this msg on the machine. It's my girl, Erika. I just can't say enough nice things about her, but I do have one thing against her though, her boyfriend. This boy, just don't even get my started on... Anyways, she's in town at some bowling thing. She's like one of those bowlers where you see them on TV. It's gonna be so nice to hang with her again, the old times...:)

Alison, one of my homegirls

Yesterday I was in the shower. Just thinking randomly, and then thinking about my whole Hawaii Haven to come. I realized that my friend Alison in ML is a friend yet not a friend yet sorta a friend. I mean, there was one time she wronged me by slandering me, yet there was this time where we all joined hands for N'SYNC, yet there is Hawaii too. It's so weird, I think about our relationship, it was just some odd years ago where she actually tried to kill herself. It'd come at such a shock and obviously she was pretty delirious, she was doing it straight now-trying to kill herself. I never knew she had it in her, Erika and Jen handled it though. I mean, I look at her, and I just don't understand the deal with her? Erika has a boyfriend, Jen has a boyfriend, they're both skinny. Alison does not have a boyfriend and is a half and half. She did date this total loser named Cassius, he's brain that my parents personally knew, but he's all up with this girl at EWU, he wants to go there. That's the sad part about small towns, Cassius is hella smart, smarter than me and almost anyone at our school, but what does a great mind go and do, btw he's a great swimmer too, he wants to go to EWU. It's sad... anyways so Ali tried to kill herself. Obviously sad since she was partying, probably not making out with anyone, school was hell, and obviously she didn't have anyone. I don't see anything wrong with her, besides she is a little pudgy and she's kinda quiet. It's so weird, we've remained friends, even though we never confront each other on how we feel. It's like we're friends by associate and therefore, we're cool no matter what.

Prom or the lack of prom

My mom goes to Nordies to pick up some clothes. There's this lady that has been helping my mom for ages and calls her whenever anything good is going on and has come in. She knows works at the "occasions" or what have you place. This lady knows me and all asks about how if I'm gonna go to prom and all this stuff. She even knows that I don't like to wear sleeveless stuff because I hate the whole arms loose thing you know. It's so weird, she knows me, yet she's only seen me a max of 5 times for less then 5 minutes. It's kinda freaky. So, she's all talking about prom. My mom is all talking about prom and says that if i'm going I better have her look for a dress for me. It's so weird, and then she's like, "you better think now, so we have time before we have to get one tailored and it might not be as great..." I'm like, right mom, right. When I was a freshmen, I was saying that I have to go to Prom and that's the only dance I'm gonna go to. Now, i'm not even sure if I want to go to prom or not. It just doesn't seem worthwhile. To tell you the truth, the only reason I want to go is because I get to wear a killer dress with matching shoes and a bag as well as get my hair done and a mani. That's all, there's no guy involved or food or dancing. I'm really materialistic I guess, so it's all about the outer layer of the thing. I'm also freaking about because I thought a group of us girls where all gonna go alone, yet some people have a notion to bring someone... which leaves me fretting...

Sherbie is an idiot

He's completely unorthodox. He starts class 15 minutes late, yet lectures long pass the bell and gets all pissy when we get up to leave. God, WTF does he expect us to do, diligently write down what he says. Hell no, I sit in class listening to all the yappers around me for a good 15 minutes and then he starts like nothing is the matter. Also, he gets seriously poed when people don't do their assignments because that means they'll turn them in late and he'll have to grade them later. He has limited time since he's a ref at b-ball games or what have you. I'm saying this, why does he care if they do their assignment or not? Does it really matter to him, I mean, he always says that in college no one will care about whether you go to class or not? He's so anal about it, just let them come to you and whine about not turning it in then say no unless they buy him a Costco hotdog. I also hate whole he lectures, his lectures don't ever cover the right stuff and make you wait until the end to receive the good notes. He talks about all this shit like how'd it be cool if... and all his personal stories. I don't quite understand why he got the UW Best History teacher. It's probably because it's the first time the procer has not fallen asleep during the eval.

I'm extremely depressed

I hate how people make me feel. I take that back, not people, it's their actions. It seems that everyone has some flaw. So yes I maybe totally hypocritcally and always talking about all these other people. It's probably how i'm unable to acknowledge what faults I have publically or I just don't see myself that interesting because I live by all the boring rules. I can say that through my upbringing that i get extremely mad when I don't get my way. It's true, I will throw this major hissy fit. That's one bad quality, another is that I love to gossip. I'm actually going to try to stop and have sorta. The reason being is that some people gossip and I see how ugly it becomes, it's the reason why I don't swear.

More later

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