No. 73

I watched a movie today. It was a "foreign film," called "Ma Vie En Rose" Anyways, it was quite striking, it totally has the theme of how what would you do knowing that you're child is not everything it's cracked up to be. Bloody good film, won some awards, could stand to watch it again.

Today, I realized I need to be tolerant and so do a great many more people. Well Miss Kiddie is being such a kid, hence the name. She totally bugs me and now I knew that she lied to me yet again. She said that she had called my house and talked to my mom. My mom said I wasn't home. WHATEVER, She's such a liar, I was home the whole time and my mom never got any call and I normally answer the phone too. She's just on crack, that's what, I'm not gonna confront her on it because I don't need to burst another blood vessel and her lying will get the best of her. I mean, it probably won't be some earth shatering ordeal like she has to stop lying for a day to save her beloved Abercrombie and Fitch Bitch. It'll get to her though. B. What also annoys me is this girl who constantly is inflatuated with Bellevue Society. She'd be a great Palm Beach pretender, yet she still lacks the knowledge. She thinks i'm an idiot, and she's exactly like Miss Jewish Princess of Medina. She constantly compares herself and whenever anything comes out of her mouth, it's totally negative. I'd love to strap one of those high blood pressure things on her and watch it go up every second until she literary starts bleeding inside. She just annoys me period, enuf said.

I've found out that this boy is being a complete ass to this girl. I look at the girl, she's completely nice and god, who does not like her. Well, I know who doesn' t like, they share the same feelings though. So, this guy is being a complete ass, and she acts like nothing happens. I look at me, so I'm thinking, what if i'm in that same situation and get dumped by the guy then do a whole Legally Blonde rendition of the breakup? Then I look again and i'm like, dear god, am I really that fickle? Maybe I should just go for guys who wear clothing and don't tuck in their sweatshirts? I'm really at odds with this? Through this whole girl/guy thing, I realized some people are such gossipers. Seriously, now I know why she talks to me. I mean, i'm saying I don't need to know about it, but being a good friend or either the part of me that wants to know, i'm gonna tell her. Why one might ask? I'm not letting her get shitted on. It's just like Happy Helen, god I look at her and I see myself, then i'm totally sad for her knowing what happened. I'm just glad she has really good friends, something that most of us don't have.

I also just realized that another thing is so eery about Dictionary Man. Whenever he asks about his "friends" (please note the quotation marks) He really means, about his "Jennie-O." Today, he totally freaked out because someone wasn't at the locker. He knwos that Jennie-O also comes out with Bee ( I haven't made her a name because she's just too damn nice to have anything bad connected to her name). He asks where, "Jen" was, not where the girls are, or where Bee and Jen are, or Jen and Bee, or have you seen them... NO NO NO, he asks for JEN. I feel pity for them, because they've got this dysfunctional relationship that they know is true, yet they can't stop it. I often read about how this girl hooked up with this ex like 4 years ago and they still are having sex. I can totally believe it, I have proof of what may lie ahead for these two. Anyways, I'm really glad it's not me, then again it wouldn't be me because I draw the line, straight and clear and no one dares disrespect me, except the Freshmen walking in the hall, or just people in general besides the seniors. I walk down the hall and it seems everyone had to brush against me, i'm just like, " back up off my space and move on." It's like they're attracted to my big yellow mellow or what, is it my perfume? Did I spray some rosemary on me and hoping everyone can cleanse themselves off me? Did they ever understand, you don't walk and brush, it's you walk and stay the clear out of my way before I start to get catty. It's annoying, but then I look into their eyes and fear totally strikes them because it seems no one ever looks into their eyes. I don't know, maybe I have really bad eyes? That was my tangent of the day.

I've also realized that I think i'll have some problems, I'm expecting love to fall into my lap or something. I was watching O-Town. I don't care what anyone thinks, they're hott and I love to watch them cry and hit the high notes that no one can bear to hear. Trevor is trying to get a girl and just can't, he's looking and yet he can't find one. The deal is this, i'm so fickle. Literary, I won't date anyone in my group of friends, anyone's ex's, or anyone that has been crushed on or lusted upon by my friends. I guess I have morals I don't know, but to me and my ML friends, it's basic, they're off limits, there will not be any intradating. Here, it's totally different.

OMG. So, sorry, it just dawned on me. If anyone didn't know this already, what I think is what I type. I really don't stop to edit anything, which includs errors and my sudden OMGs. Miss Palm Beach Pretender comes up to me and starts talking about her weight. She's not obsese yet she's probably really fat. I mean, she probably weighs a good 200 lbs plus some more, not minus. Now, I'm pretty fat yet not as fat because I actually have muscle so it kind hides it. She has no muscle at all. She's talking about how she cut back her carbs, as in stopped eating french fries with her fish and chips and eating just a grilled cheese sandwish without the chips. First of all, maybe she should stop eating OIL altogether. She said she was a size 18 and now since she cut back she's a size 14. From experience, to become an 18 to a 14, you would have to had lost at least 30 lbs at least. You can't just go from an 18 to a 14 by not eating carbs, you actually have to loose weight? She's fater then me, I know this for a fat because, and it's so sick that she wants to me about this stuff. Also, what am I gonna say, good job, scarf down another grilled cheese? This girl will never be skinny and she even says she doesn't want to because everyone else is? I think Bellevue is really getting to her, especially with her fake mani. It just screams trailer. I mean, i've just observed alot of people, and now I can totally tell whose hot and whose not. It doesn't stop me from being friends or not friends with a person, it just lets me know mroe about that person. Today I was at the gym like always. Saw this lovely lady, Rolex two toned, Mercedes key, nice striped suit-probably from Nordies, Run DMC shoes, she had it together. I give her props, it's very hard to look together you know. I mean, I look at her, and i'm like I totally see myself like that. The only thing that was a bit eery is that she had the Mercedes key where you give it to the valet, not the actual one you use? I was a bit appalled by that. Anyways, these are my ramblings and I guess i've learned some lessons as well. I think my goal for this year is to write well structured paragraphs that have to do with the theme of Life Lessons Learned, then I'll probably have another area where it will say, Trials and Tribulations, and another that will probably say, Rants and Raves-more rants than raves.

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