NO. 72

Fuck the last entry. I know, I was high of Winnie the Pooh cereal. The more I eat that stuff, the better it is. In a way, cereal could be great diet food. Especially Cheerios, I mean they have that American Heart Association for them, they're basically grain, so it totally fills you up, you can eat 1 1/2 cup of it for just 100 calories and be full. I think I should start eating more cereal, the only thing that gets to me, is I can't really invision our they make it. I mean, it's kinda ewish when I think about it. Then again, anything packaged is bad for you. Some actress was saying that she keeps away from the aisles and says close to the outer parts of the supermarket. It's so true, but the inner stuff is really the "heart of darkness."

I finally found the perfect spa I think. I'm really fickle and for the past year or so, i've been trying to find a place to get manis. I think I found it. I have a little friend, it's called . I go to the Seattle one. I found on in Kirkland. It's actually where my mom use to get her haircut. I think it'd be lovely. I'll probably go during the summer or maybe spring break, i'll probably bring Dawn. All my friends in Bellevue aren't into the whole girly thing rejunvenation day.

Speaking of girly things. It was so weird, Jennie-O actually wanted to go to Abercrombie? I don't know what she was smoking, considering the fact that she says it, "isn't her store." Of course Dictionary Man came toting along, since the only reason why he comes is because of Jennie-O. I seriously get so sick of it, I mean, it's the worst to be in their situation. So they'd probably both like to get all intimate, yet they can't knowing all the bad premonitions, so instead, they live vicariously off each other's sexual vibes, no in private, NO, IN PUBLIC. IN FRONT OF THE COMMON FOLK. Yes, imagine two people fondling each other 24/7 while you're trying to eat you're burger. I don't think they're capable of going one day without touching each other. I swear, if there was some sexual tension meter, it'd be up the charts by now. Oh top of that, Tubby all gets into the action and Jennie-O actually lets him grope her. To me, that is so fucking sick and some other people do feel the same. Seriously, and knowing the whole groping action, everyone knows that he'll go home and masturbate to that shit. It's sick, period. What's also disturbing, is that I went onto lj. There's these two Abercrombie models and they're twins right. They're in the catalog and stuff, I'm really glad I don't get the catalog. I'm checking out these sites, they're these "communities" that talk about the Abercombie stuff right, well, let's say they download some pictures that, yes they're hott, but please god we don't need to see thatm, those two twins are standing next to each other and it's full frontal nudity. They're not wearing clothes, how are they suppose to sell clothes, when they're naked. They're not even trying to sell penis warmers, they just naked standing on a dock all hunky dorry or something. DEAR BUDDHA. I was morified, als ocuz I was like, "hey these guys are cuteeeeeeeee, OH MY GOD!" I think i'm tramuatized, I might have to find a new store...

The whole problem shopping at a mall is that you look like everyone else. It's not that bad, but when you go to boutiques, some of the stuff is so naclectic you just don't know to say, and some of it is hella expensive. I'm actually digging the whole Savvy section or whatever that's all trendy in Nordies, but I really don't like to shop at Nordies. I just buy shoes and MAC there, well it's the only place you can buy Mac there. I think i'm gonna try UD too. I hear their e/s are really good. I saw this black one with sparkles, I think i'll go for that Aalyiah look. Well, I have to get my whole wardrobe together for Hawaii. I'm figuring I need some club clothing and definitely the makeup. I'm just thinking the standard black and red with sparkles. I use to look at the girls when they were buying black eyeshadow and think, "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?" Now, I finally get the gist of it. I'm really excited to go, I just don't know what to do with the whole swimsuit issue? I'm hoping Old Navy will come out with something maybe cute and classic, i'll buy tons of those things, wear them and wear something over it, then when I actually do water sports, i'll get a tankini or something like that. OH GOD, I think I have high blood pressure again. Right now, I think i'm really not that bad, like i'm not totally decent yet i'm not that horrible has in stay inside. I just need to do something about my abs. If I stop doing the ab exercises, the next few days, it becomes a Buddha belly.

Let me rant right now, I don't understand why i'm so cheap? I don't understand, it's like you only live once, I'll never have to worry about money, but why and when did I become so damn cheap. Literally, I ask myself the question, "do I want this, and why?" I guess i'm conserving my funds, but sometimes, I really wonder why i'm so cheap. I enjoy spending my parents money, but the money I save, i'm guarding it for deal life, even though at any time, I could say, "I need money, and they'd just say How much?" They'd never ask me for what and why and what happened to you're money? They're weird like that too? Why don't they ask me those type of questions. They never say, you should waste, and you should save and all this crap? Also, I found out for the pass 18 years of my life, i've been getting 867 some dollars each month from the government? DAMN, I mean, I never knew the government gave out free cash and it's not just 100 bucks either. It makes me sad yet happy. I mean, I don't need the money so maybe they should give it to someone else, then i'm like, "they're stupid, I should get it." Then again, I think, all those child support people don't have money, maybe I should give it to them, or do the whole Nature Conservancy Good Will whatever aid funds. Then i'm like, "hey, I'm lucky." Well, the payments have stopped, because this month i'm 18. I'm not happy, I feel old, I feel like a loser, I don't see what a big deal about 18 is. I think 17/junior year was the best, even though people were all freaking about college.

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