No. 277

I"m going to ramble...

I love how one can say only one word and it makes you seem smart. I love how Mariah Carey uses one big word and ultimately it becomes the hook or the catch phrase of the song.

You know what I love, I love conditionals. So, for example, if you have a pet, it must be a cat. We also know that if you don't have a cat, you don't have a pet. So, I was thinking about a certain someone. He drinks wine, therefore he must be sophisicated. If you don't drink wine, you are not sophisicated. WHATEVER. So yea, he likes "languages" and "opera." I like cheetos, that doesn't make me trailer trash Britney? I love how people just make correlations about themselves with the things they associate with. FYI: It's not cool to drive a manjetta. Just like, it's not cool to be engaged to manParis. I realized that perception is everything for the fool that some people are. You think I don't see right through you. Yea, trust me, drinking wine instead of a keg doesn't make you better than anyone else. Maybe drinking Lafite while you're in your Rolls looking at your Vacheron you might be cool-er that is. Holla at me when you're at that level, i'll buy the Lafite and we'll knock one back.

Furthremore, it's great how some of the greatest things come at the cheapest prices. For instance, I have these Sony inear earphones and they're like 9.99 because I was feeling cheap, they sound so incredible, more so than those earbuds that you get with the ipod. Yea, it's fabulous and it comes with this cute little case you can put them in with a thing that rolls up your cord for you. GENIUS for 9.99. What's more exciting, Chipotle Burritos are great too. Then again, a high end thing I really enjoy are handbags, they can be $0-500 dollars, well if I could afford those 1,000 plus god i'd be orgasming every night man. One day, or maybe I should pilfer my mother's closet.

Oh, what's annoying, so people who don't like a store because they think everything is too expensive. Went to this three lettered store that is notorious for vanity sizing and clothes all of America and is also referenced to be a supporter of a minority group of sometimes flamboyant creatures. So, she said she didn't like it and liked blah more. She said it in the context like I hate blah store and blah store is so much better. I was really thinking, yea you hate this store because everything is more expensive, she hails from the $4.98 tee shirt and should I still get it while i'm stockpiling on such a good deal. She also hates it because XL is too small for her and she'd enjoy it if it came in a XXL. Yea, sorry, doesn't happen that way. Not my fault, life is unfair, but I mean, you can't just "hate" that store because of what you feel is too expensive and not right sizing, although it clothes like all the word. It's like if I was saying that a blah sucks because they only make up to a size ten and i'm a size eleven and that's why I hate it or otherwise i'd love to buy their clothes. I mean, words are strong beings you know. They can break you...

Speaking of words breaking you. I was having this talk about how someone cannot feel pressure because they don't have to work. I think that's the most pressure one person could have. I mean, sure, standard wise it would seem normal if you didn't have to work because you got the cash you'd be chill, but it's not about that, it's interal. You are freaking out, you're freaking about how if all of a sudden you lose your cash what would you do, u're freaking out because you have all these things to do and want to do and try to redeem yourself. For those of you who assume having cash is dandy and you don't have to worry, you're wrong. As Biggie Smalls says, "mo money mo problems" is so true. I'm in college and it's paid for, but everything I figure out what would I do if I didn't have enough cash for tuition, what would I do when I go into the real world, what will be my starting salary, how much is a car payment, how much is insurance, what is a monthly allowance, how much are groceries, how much are utilities. These are just a few of the things I go through and I can imagine someone else you. So yea, if stress brings you to have to have 4 ballons open up your arteries, yea, it's not just so simple as you shouldn't worry because you have all the cash to tie you over for the next life cycle. There's a lot of mental things that occur, I mean, sure someone would be like "i'm glad you're my son/daughter" but what they really mean is, "I guess i'm happy that I have you and not a druggie, but it'd be so much better if you were in a high paying job (200,000) and that you had married someone I had approved of and had a grandchild or even two that were cute and furthermore it'd be even better if you did all the little random things I asked you to do right and promptly like go and buy wooden hangers for me." That's what they really mean by "i'm glad you're my son/daughter." For those of you who don't feel that pressure, i'm so happy for. Incredibly happy for you, but for people like me and others, this is how I feel, and everyday of my life I will be calculating and everyday I will be mentally drained due to this and there is nothing anyone could do for me. Have I seen a therapist? Have the others? So i'm going to go to someoen to tell me that "I have nothing to worry about and I have all the money in the world and that there is nothing to worry about, while i'm mentalling tallying up how much this session is costing me per minute." Yea, I won't worry when i've got a billon dollars in USD currency that will remain so without a giant economic crash and i'd be ok. Make that 2 billion, u know Uncle Sam likes to take at least 40% of your stuff.