No. 237

Ok, so memories are overwhelming today.

It's like, don't you remember those days when Pop was turning to Rock chic, it was during my HS days and there wasn't a care in the world. The big thing was working out, now, the big thing is not to be drowning in mediocre grades. It's not the competition of others, it's not anything, I guess I haven't mastered the ideals of college and what to do in college-as in how to study or whatever. I guess I had an easy season year, although it really wasn't, I was still taking French, AP English, History, Business Law, Yearbook, Algebra, and Environmental Science. I mean, still hard classes, yet it was a cakewalk and that's what I believed college to be. It'd be like in those movies of all around parties and just free flowing attitude, it's like the new Britney cd, like I imagined people would be hot and just gyrating to the music. Yea, well it's not, the people aren't hot, no one can dance properly, and a Britney look-a-like is not gyrating to the music of Britney herself. No, this world does not exist-or at least not in the rainy city I live in. I miss those moments while in cars listening to music loud, that feeling of euphoria, the feeling of feeling right and on top of the world. Now, it's when you sit in the car, blasting music, it seems like u're a hasbeen, a too old member of the young crowd. It's like back then, 7-11 was cool in HS, now it's all about Starbucks. It's like the level of tastes have risen, yet why can't it just be like it was...nostaglic of my times, I feel like an old dinosaur, but i'm not, because, "apparently the best years of my life have yet to come..."

OH, and speaking of my fabulousness, why does it seem that now MTV's Rich Girls say Fabulous darling all the time and now it seems like i've copied them, but i've said it first, so now it makes me feel like i'm saying to be like that or i'm a snooty bitch, which i'm not, it was me who said it me.

Also, I didn't go shopping this weekend. Not at all, even with a sale at Nordies-I refrained. Weird or what. Anyways...of to my new life because I can't live in the past.