No. 107

My Swimming Adventures Continues

Ok, I'm gonna go swimming tomorrow too. I think I might even do it sometimes on Thursdays, since no one is in the pool. Also, I will try the spa tomorrow, even though the jets don't work, it's immensely warm.

I realized what makes this years premonitions of it being a bad year

I knew it was going to be a bad year. I just sensed it, I mean I get these vibes, call it karma dharma hairma, I don't care, I just got the "vibes." Today Jennie-O abandoned us for lunch. She apparently skipped fourth and went out with dictionary man and boobies as in the male obese version. This is when it finally dawned on me how much I hate change and how much it ticks me off when people change. I don't know, I mean, normally change is for the better, but I simply hate it. I can't adapt, it really makes me pod. I mean, I still love her and all, but the list of annoying things is steadily increasing, it may not be her fault, well technically it is because she's letting outside forces influence her, but everyone can argue all the reasons why. (DISCLAIMER: CERTAIN people may not want to know this, reading from this line and down is advised.)

Let me get started: First, i've come to my own conclusions about all these things I will be discussing. It currently makes me a tad distressed, not the fact that i'm jealous, or the fact, that i'm a total bitch, I just hate change and i've realized the person she is becoming is not what I've alway envisioned her. It's as if I thought she was a total goddess and now she's just merely become the average Britney. It really makes me sick. Let me rant why: She wants this pink bathing suit. She hates pink and it's a stanard. She never really was refered to as "Barbie," but now she takes a lot of pride in it. I find out that she only buys items of materialistic things that will ecentuate her body. She only buys these shirts that are all reveal all and pants as well, she never buys accessories, shoes, makeup anything that is not being ablely seen by a male-dictionary man. She also has become quite a Dionne. Dionne is this little girl who has problems and has become dsynfunctional due to the fact that she was abused as a kid and her parents are divorced. Jennie-O has changed her laugh, so whenever she laughs, I can hear her a mile away and everyone turns and looks. She always says that she doesn't like dictionary man and the fact that he always plays with her and she plays back is no apparent reason to be alarmed. Not to mention that dictionary man's plan is to get her back using all forms of persuasion including a "girlfriend." I've lost all respect for her due to the fact that she lets boobies openly molest her in public. Yes, that's when I draw the line, sure the other materialistic stuff makes her remind me of a great deal of people and attributes not to be acclaimed, but the fact that she lets some guy with boobies molest fully knowing that he will jack off after school about her, just makes me sick. Also the fact that she's become more friendly with dictionary man and boobies is a bit horrid. I mean, it's great that they're friends, but it's for the wrong reasons-not real friendship. Jennie-O like to skip class now, dictionary man does it because of what, he's jumping on the "bandwagon of Jennie-0." He probably sees it as a way of "falling back in love" similarly as in looking for shit on the net. Boobies only has one mind set, "Jennie-O is hott, she gives me rides(taken both in contexts if one has a perverted mind)." All these changes don't make her appealing anymore I guess. Also the fact that she was dating some online freak and now is reportedly writing letters to another freak in get this Alaska. I just don't understand, it's not like she's not good enough to get someone here, she can have almost anyone here and probably be happy and have a functional relationship, but she's weird and choose the abnormal one. I just don't get it. I just don't get her, seriously, she's become kinda showy both verbally and physically. I'm so confused, I mean god knows what's wrong with her. My bearers of information have told me it's this girl that has corrupted her, I don't know, it very much could be. The reason why I suddenly came to this conclusion was the being that she has ditched us for lunch. Not only did I feel kinda sad, but normally it's a given that we all go to lunch. Yet, I wasn't sad, I enjoyed a lovely lunch with my AsN Homies and Courtny. I found the conversation to be enlightening even though I was a tad scared because of Kim( she thinks she's badass and never has anything positive to say) was there and I just dread her. I realize that it's actually a lot more amusing and not the fact that I hate it when Jennie-O is in the car and listens to all this stuff she listens too-which is find, but when someone says they, "love this song," she quickly hits the button to change it as if we can't like anything in her car or something. She doesn't compromise. I realize that I still love Jennie-O and not in that lesbo way, but more as a friend when she's not corrupted by certain influences in her life that I believe to be a tad to revolting. Also, Cafeteria food ain't that bad, at first I thought I might die, but I think i'll be ok, this gives me hope when I go to college and eat at the dorms.

Deca people are really well-off than most none-decas. It gives them the upper hand.

Working out at Bellevue Place. Big, yellow, Bremeteron I think or something like that goes up to Hyatt. Must be Deca competition at the Meydenbauer Center. Quite nice, seeing all those supposely able to make it individuals keeping our stock market up and will probably become the next corporate white America. Quite nice I might say, the annoying thing was there was these group of girls that came to survey the gym, they were all up everywhere and being obnoxiously loud when I was serenely trying to get into a tantric like atmosphere of working out while listening to Faith Evans. Also the fact that all the girl Deca people flooded the main areas of the Bellevue Place and could not decide where to go. Couldn't they have decided before setting out to their latest adventures of the Gap and Nordies. Seriously, I was like, "why do people come to Bell Sq and go to Gap." It dawned on me that in they're far off place, they're Gap probably sucks and everyone and thing looks alike. I really enjoy my surroundings when I make the realization of a far off place and here. Yes, as my father says, "Medina is our vacation..." It's patheic and i'm frugal, I enjoy it though. Note to self: I need to call Dionne, I always saw I will and I won't. Am I becoming a guy? What's wrong with me, what makes me want to do something, yet get home and feel like watching Days of our Lives ( I don't really watch it, but it sounded appropriate to write in there- what else could I have said, i'm watching Martha).

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