No. 81

Voices...no, not the ones in you're head.

My music changes really fast I just realized. Today, when I was working out at the gym, I was listening to Jessica Simpson. I felt that I needed an overpowerful voice. It's something about the deepness, it's not really sexy, but it's just the power behind it. I don't like Christina A-what's her face name with the hoochie pants and Racially diverse bf. Anyways, I think British boys are bloody sexy. I was watching Off Centre, I've never watched it often, but heard tons about it because it's suppose to be like American Pie or whatever. Also, there's this Chinese guy, but he's a complete loser who's named Chau (Chow) and is slightly, well overly stupid. Anyways, so i'm totally digging this British playboy, he's hott and I think it's the voice that does it for me. It's something about the voice...

Speaking of Prom...

So, on Sunday, went to the "Special Occasions" section of Nordies. It got smaller and is in this weird place now, I had no idea my mom all knows people in that department, especially the one that I've never seen. She claims to have seen me, but for the life of saving my life, I've never seen her in my whole entire life. Well, I saw this irridiscent dress, it was A line and then there's like various tops or whatever. So, my mom is totally into this she calls, "Dance" thing, and i'm like, "Dude, I don't care..." Secretly thinking, "I am at one with myself, I am not Winnie or Ducky, I am Lucky..." Anyways, I'm checking it out and I gotta say my mom definitely has the whole Ralph Lauren taste, she picked this A line navy blue with a slight shimmer, definitely gonna give her props. Anyways, I guess I never buy dresses or am around when my mom is lurching around St. John, I choose not to look like a flight attendant, thank you very much. The one dress I wanted, well the bottom of it, the A line skirt was I think 315 bucks? Then I saw this sequined top and I didn't even bother to look at the price tag. It's kinda a lot I was thinking, since I'll wear it for like a max of 5 hours. I also got to thinking that I have no choice because i'm so fat that the teen dresses usually don't fit well. Well, i'm freaking out while my mom has no problem. This coming from a lady that had a fetish with Louis Vutton for a long while and i remember correctly, she bought like a 1300 dollar bag? She's nuts, I mean, we all love labels and whoever doesn't is lying, but 1300 is a bit much? Especially since the damn thing weighs so much, it weighs more then my FAO Lucky.

Why do people have to tell lies?

Why can't people tell the truth... It's odd how people can't because not that they're protecting others, but really themselves from how can I say this eloqently, shit?!? Everyone always doesn't want to hurt people's feelings and all this and they feel bad after doing something horrid, but why can't people admit that they did it for they're own good and it makes them happy? Why can't people say, well I did it because I felt like it and everyone can play the "it's human nature card." Today, I felt like a complete ass or I felt like I totally stooped by AP English class. So, I asked people this, "If Marlow lies to the lady, has anyone thought that he was being considerate. Although he's found his own "true self," it doesn't mean that he has to ruin Kurtz reputation for everyone, right?" I guess it's the way I say things, eloquence wise, which I don't really have a problem, but lately since senioritis, i've been suffering. The whole class was totally like, WHAT, and then I had to repeat and then Ms. Rose had to clarify? I feel so weird in discussions because I guess I never state the obvious, so no one really can see where I'm going with the whole thing... Anyways, whatever...

Popularity

I realized that my parents throw bigger soirees then i throw bigger birthday parties. Isn't that sad. They're inviting 30 some peole to this dinner on the 22nd, which I have to attend and pretend to know who i'm talking with when I don't have the slightest idea who that lady is from that lady. I'm inviting I think a max of like 6 people. Isn't that sad, well technically it's not, because it's the people who I truly get along with. I'm not just inviting people for the sake of inviting them no matter whose friends with who and all this political shit.

Human Nature: Want
Ok, I just realized what I need to buy. It's like the one thing i'm missing and I also have a gift certificate to Origins, so it's totally perfect. I'm gonna get something that acts as some muscle relaxer. Yes, I figure that's great because lately when I work out, I feel kinda drained afterwards. It's that I don't sleep enough even though I get my 9 and a half hours. I'm just tired, but I can't not work out because if I don't, well it'll just make me fatter. For all those who say no, well you're wrong! I thought about buying perfume, but it's so expensive. I can't get over the hangup. I'm frugal, I can't help it. Je pense que je vais porter mes nouvelle chassures! Ok, so I just took like a minute to right that sentence. It was a tangent by the way.

Oh yea, Happy Chinese New Year...

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