No. 54

For some reason, I realize my life is not that bad, yet totally miserable. I realized that I have no social life and my parents are totally popular, including my dad. Yes, even my dad. He even has more friends that he hangs out with then me? I'm just secretly laughing at myself, I had no idea that I was so antisocial. Maybe it's all these damn books and how fincky I am? Could that be it? I also realize that my life isn't that bad considering that I have been accepted to 4/6 colleges, while everyone in Daria is all straining to get into one. I also realize that I really like these Gap PJ pants I got for $9.99. I also secretly freak out that when I'll be on the campus of UW, that I'll be walking alone under groves of trees, holding my Starbucks or Smoothie while making my way to classes. I also am secretly freaking out because I'll know no one there and all these people, especially upperclassmen will know everyone, when I'll be the lone freshmen. I also am really excited because I'll get to be on my own and might have a better life then I do right now. I also realized that I secretly create higher blood pressure over nothing because I tend to get easily irritated when something I think isn't right. I some how like to tell everyone to calm down, yet I can't clam down with myself. Also, my hair looked pretty damn good today.

OMG, flash back, well it was more like a flash forward, ok so going to the gym today. I saw the UW guy again whose all afraid people will breath on his car. Well, I realized he's immensely short, like all gym bunnies, and then the worst part is, I might actually see this dude on campus. I know it's a big campus and it's a big world, but when you're connected to this one thing, it's a small world. Just like when I saw this girl at the gym and I was just thinking that she is skinny as a twizzler, I saw her at Aldo, actually as a SA. Can you believe that? Also, at this Aids walk I saw this presumably girl/boy that was really skinny, then I saw the girl/boy at the gym. I know it's a damn small world.

I was also thinking that since I don't have any friends, well not as many as my mother. It's quite amazing, I mean it gives me hope that when i'm older, i'll actually have friends like my mom, which is kind of nifty. I also realized that whenever I see my mom's friends, they remind me of the Hong Kong Club. They actually all belong to this thing, yea it's all these people that are from Hong Kong or the Hong Kong area and now currently reside in the Seattle Area. It reminds me that they are like the Hong Kong Elite Socialite Society. I call them the HKESS. The H-Kess. Yes, I find it quite amusing. I always secretly dream of the whole New York High Society and that whole Vanderbilt yada yada and I just realized that I'm a part of the HKESS along with the other sons and daughters of the HKESS. It's quite remarkable, knowing that we'll probably still reside in this area and we'll be the second generation of HKESS hence starting our own little society that is very notable.

FYI: Need to get UD e/s in Midnight, Need to get AB book( Why do I always need to buy things?)

P.S. My parents are abandoning me on Saturday and Sunday I'll go with them to dinner. Hopefully the new DVD player will come so I can watch DVD's and stuff on Saturday and Friday maybe, even though MTV has a pretty good program on Saturdays.

I actually feel like going shopping with someone, preferable someone who reads my journal, but I know she can't because she'll be hanging out with her horses. Probably I feel so happy right now is that I actually had my proper meal diet and didn't go to Krispy Kremes. I think i'm not going to go at all, thinking that when I think about them making donuts, I get kinda nauseated considering the amount of oil they use! EW!

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