No. 53

So, I was going through diaries, and I realized that Jilliana is a great name or is it Gilliana. I like it with a J though, I mean it's so perfect, no one has it, it's one of a kind, yet not totally weird where you know some kid would be making fun of her repetely, as in if you named your child sunflower. Isn't it wicked, now I'm going to start this whole new thing. I'm going to try to speak eloquently, as in British/Canadian/ and sans WHAT? HUH? I'm really going to try.

I watched the Golden Globe Awards, there's just something about a deep voice, I mean Josh Harnett is not always that cute, literally, he never is unless he has a stylist, but whenever he opens his mouth, it's like wow? What is it?

So, I was reading Happy Helen's Journal. It's this girl who totally doesn't believe in love at first site or any of those love idioms. She's in love and I think it's so cute. In a way, it's also so weird, because no one really approves, I mean deep down, no one approves even though outside they're beaming. It's because there totally different races. She's totally happy and flighty, which I'm glad because I always look at Helen and i'm like, what's wrong with her? Why can't she find someone, and now she has. It's so cute, besides she's kinda iffy right now since the accident. Back to the why part? I mean, my cousin Dawn is pretty damn decent, in fact, in girl terms, I actually think she's not half bad, I mean she's totally decent, she's got that whole Canadian/American Chinese look. She's decent, yet she has no boyfriend. Now, I look at myself, i'm 17, she's 19 or so, she's a hell of a lot more decent than I am and she's 19 without a boyfriend, now, that does not give me much hope. I don't know what's wrong? I mean, yes she is quiet, but she totally opens up, so you think there would be some nut out there who goes for the quiet type. The only guys I have seen her with or the ones that get sent to bordering school, the snowy ones, and of all else, the classic Abercrombie Model questioning himself? What is the deal? You think they're this whole theory about one guy for one girl, well why is it Hugh Hefner doesn't have one girl, but four, and why is it that people get divorced over and over? Why is it that some people just die without ever loving anyone? How sad is that? God, and i'm reading my new book, "The Trials of Tiffany Trott," not looking good for womenkind. I mean, yea it's great not to be married and all this feminist junk, but deep down, trust me, everyone women is saying they need someone, whether it's snowing or not! AHHhh, i'm so in despair, which reminds me I haven't updated my imood in forever. Oops!

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