No. 290 Why can't people do things for themselves?

So, i'm coming to a big part of my life, it's like those forks in the road. I of course am indept at failing, I won't, and someone just said something fabulous, "if you fail, it is your ability to pick yourself up that makes you succeed" or some crap like that, I totally bought it by the way. But yea, I have never been one of those people to do that "resume building" stuff or the "I'll make stuff up because they won't check anyways" or write something that will caters to them and not for me. I'm an only child, i'm greedy, greedy for myself. Seriously, if that is what i'm getting into, I really don't want to, because I refuse to do things that are purely resume building or for stupid thing like that. I refuse to cheat myself. I mean I need to do something meaningful, especially if it gratituous. I mean, my benefits have to outweigh my costs, I am a rational person and a part of me is a moral person, I can't be unmoral and unethically because I would be unrational. Sigh...it reminds me of my own saying, "something you aren't good enough, your best just isn't good enough."