No. 176

Dawn called. I'm disappointed.

So, her father was saying "of course we'll come to see you graduation." Part of me was saying, damn, then another part was saying that I would be honored to see him there, and his wife, along with my other aunt, this now dwindled to just my cousin, dawn, their daughter. Also, she has to be back for a concert on the 18th. She has a part-time job. She didn't go to Hawaii because she had summer school, we'll now, she is doing corspondence. It pisses me off, why, because they just can't say, I don't want to come, my mom won't let me, blah blah, instead, they wait until the last minute and do this. Am I disappointed, yes, am I shocked, hell no. Dawn also has to get her wisdom teeth out on Wednesday. I have a feeling that because of that, it can be a possibility for her not to come. In a way, I wish she wouldn't come at all. She's just coming because she has too and the fact that there is great shopping here. She's not coming to support me, she's not coming to say, I knew it was hardd, but good job, she wouldn't come, but she feels bad. She doesn't want to root for me, since her parents deemed her as all worthy, then I surpassed her-I didn't try either, it just happened since she got mad at a teacher and got a C in English, then for the longest time, her parents were saying that I will become her, well that didn't happen, and now i'm deemed as all worthy. Whatever. I don't know what my emotions are, I can say that I am disappointed. Disappointed because I thought Dawn was a better person, I thought someone like my sister would be what I expect, but she's not that butterfly, but a stinging bee. Maybe it's because i'm naiive, I don't know, but it just gets to me...