No.153

I understand now. It wasn't meant to be.

I was talking about my prom dress and how I thought it was the right one even though there wasn't an aura. There needed to be an aura. I'm not going to prom. It's simply. Bee and I aren't going. First off, Jennie-O found her date. Alison is in a search of a date still. Bee doesn't have a dress. I just plain don't want to go. I have UW tests on that day, both 9AM-1PM. It's rather sad. Also, I want to buy an Anya Hindmarch Rio bag, a Prada Messenger bag, and a LV pouchette. That is running around 1000 g's, so I'm guessing that the 500 i'm spending on prom just for less then a day will be put to good use on my new purchases. Not to mention that Prom will just remind me of what a loser I am with guys not to mention how sucky it will be because I really hate to do the whole dress up and try to dance motif. Also, i'm going to college, and my parents are retired, so it's better to save since we're never going to have an income anymore.

Driving is kinda weird.

It's not that big of a deal, but traffic really sucks. I got to the gym around 3ish and I did leave around 3ish. I'm going to have to find alternative routes there because going the big streets does not work. Also, i'm so paranoid. I always think someone is going to abduct me in the parking garage. The reason why is that you have to walk pass the elevator building and there's this maintenance place, so it's like you could be abducted from the blind corner and no one would save you. That's the reason why i'm paranoid.

N'SYNC, Osbournes, and Friends are all on at the same time. AHHHHH!

I think it's that time of the month or whatever. I'm extremely quiet and totally agitated. Ok, I hate how Alison is reportedly going to wear army boots to the prom. I hate how we all says "girls only" for the prom and Jennie-O is going with Alex. I hate how dictionary man says that me, Alison, and Bee are better friends with him then he is with Jen, but considering the fact that we don't talk to him and he never says hi to us. I hate the fact that he says he's still going out with some girl, yet my friend says otherwise. I really don't know who to believe since they're both chronic liars. I hate the fact taht Jennie-O goes out with younger guys, it's just not natural, but who am I to judge. I hate the fact that I bitch like some moronic idiot over things that should not affect me besides the prom thing, but if I really wanted to go, then why shouldn't I right? I don't, so i'm not going, fate paved the way, THANK BUDDHA. Here I come, I also realized i'm a "label whore" apparently on some quiz. Sure, I love the signature designs and brands, but I don't know, it's something about getting the quality, the fad, the whole package knowing that you have the supremacy of what everyone tries to do fakes on. I love it!