No. 122

I'm getting old. Today, while watching my Friday nite TV, I fell asleep, now i'm back up, and just freshly showered. Showers are quite invigorating. See, I like to shower at night. So, that was utter pointless just for you're info type of shit.

Thinking about "Does it really matter..."

Ok, so we all know that high school kids have to have a cool ride. It's a given, especially at my school where everyone's basically sitting on nothing but 20's or German cars with specialized engines. The deal is this though, I personally don't drive to school, I think it's great to get picked up and dropped off so A. I don't have to arrive so damn early to find my spot B. I don't have to worry about anyone dinging my car. So, my dad was either entirely out of it, or maybe talking some heavy shit. The deal is this, we're getting a new car. My mom's car is I believe 22 to 23 years old. It's ancient, BUT it runs PERFECTLY. My dad was wondering if I want his car, well when I was little, I thought his BMW rocked. It was fast and sporty. Now, i'm seeing it as a death trap, I can drive a stick, but preferably not, it takes a lot of time and strength, and when i'm in the car, I just like to chill. I like my mom's car. It's a Mercedes 280E. It has the biggest steering wheel in the world-which is a hell of a lot fun to drive, it's huge-at first I thought I couldn't drive big cars, I was wrong, I never got why my mom liked the prissy sedans I would call them or the "old lady cars," well, now I am an old lady. I enjoy her car immensely. My dad was saying that the C230 or C240 whatever it is, is 26,000 bucks or so, which is not bad for my mom and I to drive. At first, I thought he was being cheap again and saying we should get that car instead of the designated E320, so i'm like HELL NO, We're larger then everyone else, and when we have company and have to go in the car, NO WAY IN HELL AM I BEING WEDGED INTO THAT TINY CAR like I have been with the 325. I mean, i'm grown now, i'm the youngest in our entended family, and I think we should get a little more leg room. So, it's weird, at first he was saying we're only have two cars for three people. Now he's saying he wants to buy a "C" and a "E." What's wrong with him? I'm not getting my hopes up, if I do, they're just be crushed when we have to fight for whose going to go out today. Also, the two car deal isn't that bad since my parents are retired-they're old. It struck me though, I really don't care if my parents get me a car. At first I called them utter idiots because well, everyone had one and it was some form of passage. Now, i'm like I really don't care. It's not that bad of a deal, I actually enjoy my parents taking me everywhere and I love seeing my dad squirm because he has to take my places, it's very amusing, and he was the one saying I should start driving when i'm 18 not at 17. 17 was my negoitation. I feel like even though if I get a car or not, it doesn't matter, seriously, I mean either way it's not like I don't get rides to places or anything. It's perfectly fine, and I mean you're only the person you are with or without a car, cars don't make you, you make yourself. Don't get me wrong though, i'd think it'd be pretty damn hot to be cruising the freeway in some new Benz, but well...when i'm in my 20-30s, it ain't gonna be so hot. This whole car deal only matters when you're in school, when you're not, anyone could car less except the high school student next to you thinking he's all that and then looks over and checks a look at you!