No. 131 again

Some freak shut me down, well, let me start all over.

I feel like nothing. Nothing effects me anymore. I feel bleh.

Ok, so I can't remember what I was saying. Let me see, Tangent: Ryan/Sebastian dies in Cruel Intention is a joke. Give me a break, no one dies from a car. Spring Breakers chillin in circle at Nordies. When did Nordies become the hot spot, why can't they find some place and hang out instead of hogging the place. Went shopping. Got some nice stuff, all killer, yet didn't effect me, no orgasm. I even ventured into the whole dieselish street old skool adidas stuff, and no i'm not that joyous. Ok, Gap employs the most gay people i've ever seen in my whole life in Bellevue. The whole herd of them work there. It's quite amusing though when they're flustered. I've become enthralled with designers. That's my lastest vice and I believe it's over. I've decided to put my ass into it, i'm going to get my license. My dad has been telling me to go while use to he said I should wait to learn how to drive. He's even kicking me out of the moving vehicle. I can't really parallel or back around the corner, I can if my life depended on it, but sometimes I just don't give a damn. I'm going to do it though, i'm going to take the written during break and the drive whenever. Seriously, what have I got to lose? It's not like i'm a horrible driver. They say theortically I can fail both parallel and back and still pass. I mean, I drive really well, just aren't that great at those two things. What have I got to lose, i've been paranoid that I won't make it, but if I don't, then I'll just take it again. Seriously, there's no law, i'm not going to get shamed and after all, I haven't had my license for two years and that's enough shame. So, why am I so afraid. I'm not afraid of killing anyone, I know I won't, I can't stand hurting the car, why would I wanna do some vehicular homicide. So, I really don't know what i'm scared of. Sure, there's the standard driving by myself, but it's a thrill, I love it. When I back out of the garage into the lane by myself, I have this thrill. It's simply divine, so what's my vice about this whole drivers thing? I mean, I always tell myself I'm going to wait until I have nothing to do, but I always do, so that's not going to work. I'm going to do it though, I CAN DO IT.