No. 97

Yes, I've blogged three times. Quite odd, anyways I realized that for once, the most closest kin to myself does not even think about these things, therefore I know I am the only girl that thinks about these things I saw in my blog. I feel so alone and odd yet totally spiritual and smart too. Maybe i'm obsessive compulsive like the quiz said?

Here's my chat thing:

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Salmon Skin Roll says:
isn't that a gweney movie?
GodDesS says:
yea, and she wans't even in it for a good half of it
GodDesS says:
she acted like a ditz too
Salmon Skin Roll says:
lovely, she is going down hill
GodDesS says:
yes, i understand how she was all depressed after bounce came out and ben was all blaming her for the bad movie and stuff, cuz it was her dad who directed it, u know those puma slides i have, i saw gwennie wearing the open-toe version with that Luke Wilson guy-
Salmon Skin Roll says:
how very sporty chic of her!
Salmon Skin Roll says:
so have u guyz mapped out this whole hawaii trip?
GodDesS says:
yea, it's over it's done with... i'm ready, hopfully, i've been hitting the gym
Salmon Skin Roll says:
sounds good!
Salmon Skin Roll says:
i'm going to europe this fall!
GodDesS says:
i hope, i was counting the days of my period, and i think it might happen in hawaii? How will that suck?
GodDesS says:
what am i gonna do?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well wear a tampon if u really feel the need to swim
GodDesS says:
dude, i haven't worn one, where am i suppose to stick it?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
ummm there's only one place
GodDesS says:
oh god, do i have to?
GodDesS says:
seriously, it won't be joyous i swear
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah well, maybe u just shouldn't swim, or maybe it won't be that week if u're irregular
GodDesS says:
god, I really hope so... it's like the one thing i fear
GodDesS says:
oh yea, scotland?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah for a year!
Salmon Skin Roll says:
It should be good, hit up paris and london along the way!
GodDesS says:
dude, just don't bring home a kilt and pleaze don't date anyone who wears a kilt on a regular basis
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yes i'm sure they only pull those things out on special occassions, not to fear
GodDesS says:
good, and don't bring one for you're dad, cuz u all know he went to school there, he'll feel nostaglic
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah, i don't envision him looking too pretty in it
GodDesS says:
hahaha
GodDesS says:
god i hope not
GodDesS says:
so when r u going
Salmon Skin Roll says:
they start school later so it'll be in october
GodDesS says:
u lucky ducky
Salmon Skin Roll says:
but they end later and they have a one month break in between
Salmon Skin Roll says:
U should come visit me and we can go to paris
Salmon Skin Roll says:
or milan, or london
GodDesS says:
yea, if my dad isn't cheap
GodDesS says:
homie-g that would be tight
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well he seems to bet gettin better with the money
GodDesS says:
my dad?
GodDesS says:
whatever
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well at least he's letting u go to hawaii
GodDesS says:
yea, well that was a given
Salmon Skin Roll says:
so are u guyz going to thailand or anything still?
GodDesS says:
probably not, my dad is cheap, remember that
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yes since he spent the money hawaii
GodDesS says:
oh, he's even cheaper than that. he's so weird, i mean you'd think one would like to visit his fellow bros and sis', but never... it's weird
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah i think my dad had to guilt trip him into coming up
GodDesS says:
he's so weird u know... it's like he wants to live a life as a hermit?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well u know medina is a vacation in itself
GodDesS says:
oh yes, the ducks really bring a whole new joy in my life
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yes i can tell, with the endearing names u have given them
GodDesS says:
yes, it really sucks, i mean dear god, oh and he's going to be even more cheap because he has to pay for my college
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well at least he's not making u'r mom pay
GodDesS says:
puleeze, he would try but he woouldnt' knowing aunt no. 4 and you're dad would be all up in his face
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah they get rowdy!, u'r mom would cry
GodDesS says:
hahahaha, yea, but that's after she starts yelling at him and doesn't stop and starts all nagging him until he walks away
Salmon Skin Roll says:
so tragic i tell you!
GodDesS says:
yea, whatever, it's not like we're invovled
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah quite true. so when's u'r grad?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
do u have a dress yet?
GodDesS says:
when's my what?
GodDesS says:
no i don't
GodDesS says:
i dont' have anything
GodDesS says:
i really don't care either
Salmon Skin Roll says:
don't u guyz have prom or something?
GodDesS says:
yea, i don't care either, all my friends are trying to find dates, and there are not acceptable guys at this school
Salmon Skin Roll says:
when is it?
GodDesS says:
some time in may
Salmon Skin Roll says:
u don't NEED a date
GodDesS says:
i know, but if everyone goes with a date....
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well i'd rather go without if it's with a total loser
GodDesS says:
i KNOW
Salmon Skin Roll says:
EEKKKK
GodDesS says:
i really don't care, it's weird, but i rather enjoy life outside of high school now, even though they say it's that year to remember everone, but i feel rather nice without school
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah i tell u university is WAY better
GodDesS says:
i hope so, even though i'm not convinced, especially u would never be convinced until u live it yourself
GodDesS says:
i think my main fear is going to college than being totally alone while everyone is hanging out u know
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well it's big enough that there's something for everyone and u'll find u'r niche.
GodDesS says:
well i hope so, like i hear from these girls at school (high school) that they moved here and it took them liek a whole half a year to find ppl than they weren't even close, even though some of them have deformities of the etiquette kind
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well that's high school. How did u find moving here for high school?
GodDesS says:
ewell for me it's ok, see i'm social u see, it was sorta hadr, but not that hard
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well do u find that the friends u've made are close and u'd alwayz keep in touch with them?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
or not?
GodDesS says:
well in moses lake yes, like erika, ali, and jen, but the friends here are kinda how can one say, heartless...like they don't know the true meaning of being a friend
Salmon Skin Roll says:
mmm... well u know what it doesn't matter b/c u're lucky and u've found "REAL" friends already, and hopefully u'll meet more in college. I know i've met alot in college. Don't have any from elementary school, but i do from highschool still.
GodDesS says:
yea, i know
GodDesS says:
i hope so...
GodDesS says:
ok, i have a question
Salmon Skin Roll says:
shoot
GodDesS says:
ok, so i don't know if these freaks u out or maybe u think you're a total babe, but as far as i'm concerned, u haven't had a boyfriend as in for a long period of time or eitehr you're extremely private and don't even tell me, which is find, but has it ever occured to u, that we might be singleton for a whole of our lives, considering we aren't totally with ppl in high school and it's you're third
GodDesS says:
year in college and there still isn't anyone...
GodDesS says:
unless there is...
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well it's my 2nd year right now. yeah but i'd rather be alone than dig through the garbage of choice. Yet i realize i have major complexes to overcome and i have major walls that i need to let down. I've had my chances but i don't let ppl in and i think i'm majorly picky. So i gather its something i need to work on
GodDesS says:
well it's be you're third next year, you're in scotland, i'm taking you're not gonna find some kilt wearing type of log rolling guy here u know, god aren't u freaked, you're only gonna be in college for 4 years, you're not like me who has to go for like 8 or something, and i've been reading these whole briget jones tiffany trott shopaholic books that are relaly scary, they never find teh damn guy,
GodDesS says:
unless he's really mental!
GodDesS says:
i'm freaking, and i'm just in high school
GodDesS says:
i mean, if i continue doing my daily life, i knwo i'll never find anyone
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well u'
Salmon Skin Roll says:
u'll be in college next year so don't have a heart attack
Salmon Skin Roll says:
And ARE U OPEN to meeting that guy? or are u just like let it happen or are u out there searching?
GodDesS says:
i know, which i'm totally freaking
GodDesS says:
no, no guy ever talks to me, of interest u know
GodDesS says:
like i start to think i'm a total loser
GodDesS says:
i'm not looking but it's not like i'm not looking
GodDesS says:
it's so sad
Salmon Skin Roll says:
Well do u go talk to the guy u'r interested in?
GodDesS says:
no, there aren't any, every guy is dysfunctional at our school
Salmon Skin Roll says:
would u though?
GodDesS says:
with a dysfunctional guy, hell no, and ew
Salmon Skin Roll says:
NO i guy u actually was totally crushin on
GodDesS says:
there is no guy and there never was a guy, they're all dysfunctional and mentally ill in every way
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well say there was in college would u go up and make the first move?
GodDesS says:
oh hell no, puleeze, i'll totally make the move on some girl trying to buy the same shirt as i am, but for a guy, probably not, unless i knew that he liked me...
Salmon Skin Roll says:
EXACTLY my POINT
GodDesS says:
WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO, we'll end up totally lonely by the time we're 40 and have to freeze our eggs
Salmon Skin Roll says:
ok u'r not going to die soon. breathe
GodDesS says:
seriously, i mean i don't care about college, but what if we never procreate, seriously... doesn't that freak u out, i mean god i look at you dawn, and you're totally decent so if u can't land a guy, what am i gonna do?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well it' MY PEROGATIVE. cuz i have COMPLEXES which HINDER this PROGRESSION. I tell u for me it's alot of fear. I'm sure if i totally put myself out there i wouldn't have a prob. But i'm just sittin here waitin for it to hit me over the head. Obviously NOT a clear choice. But u know what these things happen when u don't expect it to
GodDesS says:
i know, they say you shouldn't expect and it'll just fall into place, well damn it hasn't fallen into place not once, and hello, you hear about those 15 year olds, i think we're getting old compared to them
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yes we are. but don't freak out
GodDesS says:
nsycn hold on
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yup
GodDesS says:
ok
GodDesS says:
i'm back
Salmon Skin Roll says:
okie
GodDesS says:
well what are u doin, totally calm, oh god, maybe i should stop reading those european novels
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah it's really not good for u'r health
GodDesS says:
god, i mean don't u think that college is gonna change and you'll have glam friends and a great boyfriend, well it's not occuring
Salmon Skin Roll says:
i'm not going to go out with a sign on my forehead
GodDesS says:
duh, no one is, of any taste
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well i don't need a boyfriend to validate my existence and my life has changed and i do have awesome friends and i couldn't be happier, and if a guy comes so be it and if he doesn't i'm not going to cry myself to sleep every nite
GodDesS says:
i know, i mean i don't, and no one should and hasn't someone famous said that validating the existence thing, but has it ever occured to u that it might be a possibility that we never marry and procreate ourselves so there will be someone like us on this earth?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well than that just is too bad, and i'm not going to stop living my life b/c of it and wonder and worry about it everyday, cuz it'll make it worse.
GodDesS says:
but don't u feel a bit sadden that you might not have another little dawnie on the earth when you're gone?
GodDesS says:
don't u feel sad that you'll be the last tse
Salmon Skin Roll says:
yeah but it's not our fault that we don't have bros
Salmon Skin Roll says:
or that we don't have a dickj
Salmon Skin Roll says:
dick
GodDesS says:
don't u want someone to tell all u know for the hopes that he'll tell u someone else
GodDesS says:
hahaha
GodDesS says:
well that doesn't count, we can't procreate someone and leave them, the whole ideal is to entil our values and what we care about into them and let them survive
Salmon Skin Roll says:
right but getting married doesn't gurantee that u'll procreate
GodDesS says:
well it's gonna probably, it's pretty basic, omg, what if we pulled a calista flockhart rosie o'donnell type of deal carheim mayhem type of thing
Salmon Skin Roll says:
well rosie's gay
Salmon Skin Roll says:
and well i'm not
GodDesS says:
what, are u serious, has she come out?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
and calista... she's just oddly anorexic
GodDesS says:
hahahaha
Salmon Skin Roll says:
i think they were talking about it on the view and she did an interview with diane sawyer which hasn't aired yet
GodDesS says:
omg, and why are u watching the view?
Salmon Skin Roll says:
oh i didn't someone told me
Salmon Skin Roll says:
or rather it was on Entertainment tonight
GodDesS says:
oh ok, thanx god, i thoguht u were a view viewing oprah watching martha stewart smoothie making apple crisp making girl

Life is quite sad for me, knowing i'm the only one that thinks about these things. Well for her she seems so unafflicted by not being a Tse and all this shit, while i'm all into the European legacy deal type of lifestyle. I'm weird and probably have been reading too many of those European Singleton inspired novels. They're evil.

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