Diary of Goddess: Life Lessons Learned

I started this blog in HS, when I was this materialistic, but saying I wasn't materialistic first to start a blog and thought my life was so fab since all I did was school, shop, & friends. Fast forward 4 years later, I became this college student that realized that college life wasn't like the movies and MY struggle began...Some 10 years from HS and here I am, living my dream of going to law school, bringing a whole new meaning to MY struggle…

Tuesday, February 19, 2002

No. 90

This is what I found:


So, I had no idea that this site existed, I thinking i'm totally net suavy has found this whole webring of all these people who worship or totally hate her. It's quite odd, up until know I thought most people didn't do elaborate displays of mockery until I came upon doing my own blog. Quite odd ain't it? Anyways, this site is quite odd, especially since this girl rambles and most people just say things and move on right? I wonder about the people who exist on the internet? Truly, what does it feel like?

I orgasmed.

It feels so good. Actually, this time tremendously, I got those AF jeans, they're cute I think, AF jeans fit me perfectly, it's so odd, considering they make sizes 00, I had no idea that it actually existed. One thing that totally didn't make me orgasm, is some chick at AF bothered to wear a Thong with her jeans, now I gotta say, damn you're in public, please don't expose you're self. It's one thing that you're at school among you're peers, but it's another if some old lady walks in trying to buy clothes for her grandchildren and see's a Britney-eqsue thong wearing hoodlum. Girls these days, and this one was old too, you think they are afflicted by the likes of Britney. Ok, so I definitely did orgasm a few times. The things I bought were (small recap to make me feel better about my accomplishment): AF Jeans, Green Long Sleeve Polo Shirt with Rhinestone Horseshoe-well worth the $15.90 bucks for that one, even though it's green, Jean Skirt-$18.90 it's nice a tad faded and distressed, yet totally not overkill, Origins Destresser-I've been getting headaches lately because of the hot and cold weather, 2 Journals at reg. proce of 12 bucks down to 3 bucks- includes nice rice paper with glitter, a definite must, Glitter soundtrack-not to mention I understand why people go to the net to download music. So, my gracious friend Jen decided to get me a giftcard for 20 bucks right, the damn cd was 19.99 and then I had tax, so I had to pay an extra 1.75, and they're saying we're ripping off the music companies. Ok, yea, sure whatever you wanna say. I got home and got a lovely package from my cousin, quite a shocker considering that she's totally been avoiding me for a good lifetime. She got me this hand towel, now I don't understand why though? Normally, we're great about giving gifts, we're Martha Stewart wannabes, so we try hard to complement what is given right, then she gets me a stack of Smoothie making cards-it's like a book, but in a form of cards for easy handling, and I go this one marble saying magnet. Ok, so the magnet must have cost a whopping 5 bucks, I myself have bought a few around 3 bucks or so, so I have this smoothie cards, the hand towel, and the magnet, the theme of the gift is? What, am I gonna go to college and use my hand towel at the dorms while buying a blender to make myself smoothies with my smoothie cards and I can use the magnet to pin up the smoothie card? I just don't understand, also she's going to Scotland to go to school next year. Not only am I semi jealous, but all her friends got chosen too, both of them, so all three are going, even though they're at different schools, god I really wonder why some people suffer so much and some people get by so easily. This coming from a girl that assumes that everyone she meets is a only child, since both us are, also the girl who doesn't think having a maid in Canada is a big deal-technically to all the white people, it'd be called slavery, and not to mention that she thinks the whole population is not poor and is as equal fiancially as she is or even better or horrendously worse. Sometimes, it just strikes me and dear god, where have you been, even though she's a world traveler, you think you'd realize right, maybe a few seconds with the Discovery Channel or CNN and it'd bring you to life right, NO!?!

Mac Lipglass

I totally feel tempted to get it, but I didn't considering the only thing I like about it is the damn packaging. Ok, so I'm making a deal, i'm going to ask my friends for Sephora or Nordie gift certificates for parfume. I'm going to buy parfume, at least I think i'll buy Romance and Glamourous by Ralph Lauren. Those are the two I really want, I think I might feel compelled to get something else, but it's like the two scents that I adore. Is it really that hard to buy parfume, I don't understand, i'm so frugal. It's the whole thing with the AF jeans, yes, they were 55 bucks and normally I go to cheapass Old Navy for those 30 buck jeans, yes 15 bucks more, it's not like I can't part with 15 bucks, but it's something about me, something that makes me buy something at 30 and not quite satisfied then when I get my 55 buck jeans and I'm totally orgasming over them. I just don't understand? Anyways, i'm gonna do it, i'm going to get parfume, I can do it, that's what i'm telling myself. Even though I think it'll be over 100 bucks, Romance is 47 bucks and Glamourous is 52. Why the price difference, this is how cheap I am, I can't stand to buy the what, 5 bucks more for Glam than for Romance. I do like Romance better than Glam, Glam's a bit abrasive at times, best worn at night. Yet, I don't understand why i'm so frugal with money, when my mom bought this killer jacket from St. John-normally all the things make you look like a flight attendant or Barbara Bush, but this jacket was really decent with a slight shimmer, it was 300 bucks out of 600, totally saying, "mom, you have to get it." Yes, 300 bucks and I'm gun-ho for it, while my 55 buck jeans I'm sitting there totally looking at it comtemplating, "is this really worth it, do I really want this..." I'm pathetic I know. I can't help it. (at this moment of typing, i'm wearing my jean skirt, it rocks). TANGENT: The stores have nothing, Gap is totally ugh, even though they're all like, "we're spotlighted by InStyle." I never go to the Limited anymore, probably because I don't prefer to wear a blazer to class. I just don't walk over to Express, they're clothes are so bland now. Nordies, puleeze, don't get me started, even though I got my skirt there, there was only one, such a great find... The rest ewish to a shopper such as moi.

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