No. 191

Subjects: My Uncle, Pedro from Real World, Monthly woes...

Ok, my uncle.

He's chill, he's in the hospital. I thought it was dying, although I knew it couldn't be the bad thing that I sensed at the beginning of the year, because I figured he's old and it really wouldn't shock me, he's not dying though. Pedro, for some reason, I always cry for the media, but never in my own family. I never cried at my grandmother's funeral or am I crying about my soon to be deceased uncle in a few years I hope. I cry for Princess Diana and I cry for Pedro, I just don't get it, it's like, I don't know them, but I cry for them, while my family, I know them, and I don't. What's wrong with me?

Monthly estrogen levels or whatever.

It seems that I get these weird moods, there's quiet Lisa, just wanted to be loved cuddled Lisa, greedy nothing is perfect how dare you piss me off since you didn't iron the linens the right way and stuck in the toilet paper in a triangle Lisa. It's really sad. I don't get it, I think it's the estrogen levels. Right now, i'm looking at all the couples in the world and i'm like, why can't I have a cuddler. WHY WHY WHY? Oh, and plus, Dawno, who has been repressed and never told me a damn thing about her life besides her perchant for blue has told me all about her life more, like how she had a boyfriends and boys liking her, which I haven't, or either they haven't confessed, and all about her party lifestyle, which I have yet to embrace fully. I'm in self woeing right now. Tangent: Fixed the web page. I didn't realized it looked so shitty before, I had bubbles on there, but then they disappeared or something.

E-mailing.

I wrote Dawn a long e-mail. It was probabably like 20k. It was sad. It was 3 pages long. I hope she enjoys it.

Dorm stuff.

It's about time I get into it. I saw that Todd Oldham is doing dorm stuff for Target. OMG, so what is it, is Todd pulling an Issac Mizrahi and going bankrupt too. It's so sad, but plus, I'd never be able to fit into Todd's stuff, I mean size 1 and 2 even in tees, give me a fockin' break, seriously? Can't there be s, m, l, and maybe xl or you can change the numbers to 1, 2, 3, and possibly 4.