Diary of Goddess: Life Lessons Learned

I started this blog in HS, when I was this materialistic, but saying I wasn't materialistic first to start a blog and thought my life was so fab since all I did was school, shop, & friends. Fast forward 4 years later, I became this college student that realized that college life wasn't like the movies and MY struggle began...Some 10 years from HS and here I am, living my dream of going to law school, bringing a whole new meaning to MY struggle…

Sunday, July 28, 2002

What's wrong with me?

Randomness right now. Craving Cosmo and ultra methanol light and calming sounds of waves. Might want to think about getting wave cd. Anyways, so, decide to lurk through AsianAvenue. Fucking bloody hell, this guy that iv'e seen forever, the one who lives in Moses Lake and now here and I think is a stalker, well there's this dude on there that looks like him, his name is Eddie too, is Cantonese and lives in Bellevue. WHAT THE FUCKING BLOODY BLOKE IS WRONG? Oh god, literally and he's a macker too in Asian G'd up language. I personally don't talk like that, I still write Asian as in Asian not Azn or whatever. i'm so at odds and i'm secretly scared, what if i'm addicted to nicotine. I only smoked like three a day for a week and that's it? Oh god, help me! Oh, and watching foodtv. Realized there is a potato vodka. It leaves a sweet aftertaste unlike grain. Maybe it'll be a better alternative to absolut. I hate that shiet.