No. 182

Hawaii and my mixed feelings.

So the deal is i'm more excited about getting on a plane then actually being there in Hawaii. The thing I fear is this whole night clubbing deal when in a US territory and we're only 18 not 21. I'm a wimp, whatever. Yea, not to mention that no one is saying good bye to me, I mean, i'm on the net and no one is saying "have a good trip, hope you don't croak." Something is definitely wrong with that. Also, I totally didn't want to pack and not to mention that it cost hella a lot to go to Hawaii, I mean the whole removal of hair and buying all these wrappy things and swimsuits and shit like that, you think someone could travel light, no, my products weigh a good 10 pounds and I think that's what really contributes to the whole deal. Not to mention that my suitcase is one of those organizational ones, so it takes up more room and you have to try to just be all Martha Stewart with it. I'm used to the plain blank space just shove everything in roll and tuck deal. Yea, and I was wondering, Martha, why don't you do a traveling segment? I mean, she teaches you to be organizational at home, but why not in travel? Is organization suppose to fall apart simply because of traveling and lack of itterary? Seriously? Anyways, if someone could make those organizational deals for traveling like bags or boxes for panties, socks, and products of various things, that would be FAN-TAB-U-LO-O-SIS.

Piano

So, last friday, 12 years of my life was taken away from me. As my teacher didn't give me anything, but these words about closing an era shit like that, I actually felt sad, on the verge of crying, if I did, I could, but my parents were in the car and that would have been stupid. Anyways, I never thought I'd miss it, I didn't cry about high school, but i'd cried about piano. After having three teachers and always not having enough time to practice, piano was really not worth it. I was sad, I moved on. I don't know if i'll let my kids play. Piano really makes you a person in terms of gracefulness and calmness. Eloquence that whole thing, it's this thing that you do when you're little and when you're rowdy you have to sit and play this thing and of course it doesn't fight back, so if you fight it, it'll just be there you know. Odd how something so materialistic can do that.

TRL and some Freak?

So, is it true that Carson left? I didn't even know that. Then for some reason I started watching it twice in a row the day today and yesterday, and I was like wow, that is not Carson, but he's kinda hott in that scrawny short way. Also, when I look at Brian McFaden now, i'm like oh Nicole Hilton. Ok, Paris Hilton's beau is hot, Mr. Tommy Hilifiger man, whew weeeeeee, Brian is hot too in that next door boy working at the Gap but a playa since he works at MTV and hits on all the girls type of deal.