No. 181

I've had a lot of things go on, I feel like I want one of those MTV Diary people to just 'blog' my life. It'd be easier.

Airports and the lack of security.

Beener just got off the tarmac. There was a fire alarm thing and ruckus prevailed. Scary, I fly on the 3rd. Cubby flies on the 4th. Oh dear god, don't let me die before I get to Hawaii, that would really suck. Scaried, scaried, scaried, it's not a word maybe it is whatever I just feel like a duck sitting in a pond alone.

UW

Alison went to the orientation. She said it was loads of fun. She also did a little NC-17 action. Bad girl, she was bad. Two boys and herself in one room the whole night. Not like Showgirls, but bad for her, since she's what we call the 'resident virg.' She enjoyed it a lot, talked to me four a whole hour about it, most I ever talked to her about any subject.

Shisiedo

I still can't spell it. It's my new love. Great shit I gotsa say.

Asian Avenue

So I signed up. It's goddess_333. It's boring. I just wanted to see the crush that Dawno likes. One word, DAMN. He's like Asian GQ. Never have I seen a guy that hot and of Asian decent. OMG, pass the Evian spritzer. She's repressed her feelings, now she's made it blatantly true she likes him. I'm happy for her, I just hope he likes her. He's shy too. Oh god, can't think of bad outcomes now.

Hawaii

Haven't packed. I know, starting to panic I tad. Did get myself the tube top I needed. It's really not that bad, actually kinda flattering too. Erika told me people really don't care, they might look, but then they'll just move on, so at least I don't have to hid my fat arms behind tees.

Spending Benjamins

I've been quite a spendaholic. It's kinda bad. And all the stuff, I really need to. I've got new luggage. Not Louis, but who would want to travel with that, unless it's a private jet. My mom got new luggage, I'm just using her, plus I got a new duffle a while back for UW, so i'll be sporting that too.

10 Spot

I'll miss my MTV and all my shoes, especially the bisexuals on Road Rules. Oh, i'm sad, but i'll be clubbing and hopfully drinking it up too. Probably not, but maybe, I've never been to Hawaii, maybe they're much more lax.

I think I need help.

My biggest thing is that for some reason I love getting things, but when i'm done getting it, I sport it, and I feel great. It's a confidence booster, but for some reason I can't find confidence within myself. I think right now i'm really down since weight is a big issues and money spent is making me happy. Such as all I can envision at UW is having nicer products then everyone else. Also, there's this one lane, it's called cherry blossom lane-one paved roadway for walking with grass and cherry blossom trees and gothic architecture lining the way. What I envision is my Hello Kitty messenger bag, my stainless steel coffee cup, me in a snazzy get up, polished/together yet totally comfy and not ho-esque or skin bearing of any kind. That's all I can envision. Oh, and me in the Felicity-esque library studying with my new Dell Laptop. Yes, i'm not interested in the people I meet or anything, just what my belongings are and shit like that. Is that sad or what? I really don't know what to do. I'm more excited about going to Vegas/San Fran with my rents knowing that they will buy me stuff instead of going to Hawaii where I heard everything is hella expensive and my girls aren't living so lavishly. Oh, and I secretly see myself walking across campus with my Prada school bag on my way to a chic coffee house where I'll chill with InStyle. I know, and all of this does not evolve other people. How sad is that?

I'm watching True Life: I'm a Pledge

Man, talk about none soroity esque girls not being in one. They're kinda odd looking, like not stereotyped. Nice ass house though.

Panasonic I have a feeling is my new savior

So, my Sony waterproof sport cd/radio player died. Yes, after how much money was put into it. It's dead. I decided to get a Panasonic that does the cd/radio thing but it was about 3 of the Panasonic for one Sony. I know, i'm stupid, and the Panasonic one was a lot easier to open too in terms of packaging and is a lot nicer looking. The sport one was really clunky. It was a hunt though. I had to get on the net to buy it and ship it 2-3 day mail. It really sucked. Also, I couldn't find my Evian Spritzer, I was sadden, anyways I bought DDF spritzer and all the proceeds go to some repressed people. It was cool.