No. 140

Ok, got back from Portland. I was so good, I didn't even turn on my computer yesterday, but my dad did. I have some few relevant things to say. I just kinda get remember them all, so i'm just going to do my usual, say anything out and try to puncuate as I go.

Visiting people in distress.

I've never gotten it, my godfather, we've visited him like once every two three years. Now he has some atrophy where it makes his body not do anything, but his mind is just like normal, and now we've visited him so many times, I think about 4 in total, that's like my whole life of visits just in two years. I kinda hate it and think it's wrong. I mean, is it right to see someone more often knowing that the guy's gonna croak? Seriously, it's like i've forced to go because we all know he's gonna have a shorter life. Why can't I just go once and actually wanna go instead of just sitting there like some freak? I don't get it, no one ever visits you, but when they learn you have cancer or something, they're coming in waves. Oh, and we're not money grubbers or anything like that, no one is that comes and visits him, but seriously, why do we come more when we didn't before? (it rhymes, hehe)

Stupid daughters and sons.

I don't get it, I seriously don't. Stinkyhead and his dysfunctional sister are finally coming to either see that their mother is dying or either making sure she has a will. I don't get it, never do they come, and now they're coming to visit because apparently she has some sort of thing in between her lungs that could be cancerous, like 70 percent. I knew something bad was going to happen. No one can face the fact that EVERYONE DIES in my family. It's quite amusing, but I realized that the bad thing isn't going to be for her to die. See, when I realize something bad is going to happen this year, it often takes my by surprise. So I know my godfather nor my vicious aunt will die, because I expect it, so it's got to be something totally different. Just like I didn't expect grannie to croak, and she did. What could it be, I also know i'm not going to get the roommate from hell, because well I expect it, so it's not going to happen. Thank god too. I just don't get why the freaks of nature are being so nice to their old mother.

BMW stick driving.

I can do it, I seriously can. I'm not stupid and I can drive stick, I don't want to and I seriously don't think it's all that fun. That's the reason why i'm not a racer. It just doesn't do it for me, not unlike a nice pair of sandals in tan does.

I'm alone tonite.

Yes, my parents are abandoning me twice tonight. It really sucks, also I wish I could have gotten my license during spring break, so then I would have just gotten to go get my own dinner, while now my parents are going to get it and it'll be cold so i'll have to heat it up. It's ok, I relish the fact that i'll soon be a driver and have to do things on my own. At least I know my laundry will not be done by me, probably untill maybe the 7 years of college/law school then i'll probably start doing my own. That's a comfort at least, no pink clothing. Also, why can't they make colors and whites interchangeably? I Don't get it!

Anyways, maybe more later on the day...