No. 60

I had just finished watching Crazy/Beautiful. I realized this from the movie or either during it when I was thinking. I tend to muli-task or I get extremely bored. Besides the fact that the Medina Policemen gave me a fright tonight. Apparently he has pulled over someone around 11ish. I'm paranoid and I'm thinking wonderful, I'm going to die tonight. Way back when, when the old owners still lived here, there was a robbery in a nearby bank, somehow the thefts found there way into my area, well, let's just say they got so close, that even in our secluded drive, we have a gunshot in our window. I think it's replaced now, we got a new window, but before they had sealed the whole and whatnot. So, as the red, white, and blue lights were whirling around, I was playing that crabby old women, who says the sirens are distressing, now I'm worried about the lights. I mean, what I way to go, you're about to embark on what society says is the most important part of you're life, and what, you die while watching TV. Not happy happy. Well, I realized that my life may never get this easy until I retire. I mean, what I do everyday is go to school, go to the gym, and come home. I study the minimum to get my by with A's, and I go to sleep. I've never understood how people complain about going to bed at 3 because of homework, because all my life, i've finished my homework before 6 most times except sometimes during tennis season and on weeknites, I always go to bed at 9:30 unless I feel like staying up to watch TV. Maybe I'm some freak multi-tasker or maybe I haven't been challenged? I don't know, but I realized that my life will never get easier then this. I know that when I become an attorney, I'll probably not live the office by 6 PM and what about college. I'll probably be struggling the first year and totally need to study, but i'll be at University Village instead. DEAR BUDDHA? I realized that maybe, I have taken my 4 years not to the greatest advantage of doing what I think would be fun, but then when I go to college and it's my 4th year there, i'll probably say, "My god, I don't think i've taken advantage of my 4 years here." I feel so weird, on weekends, it's like I have all these questions and I'll only have theorical answers. Damn Ms. Rose, I really wonder if she sits around thinking about this.

I believe in fate and whatever you do to others will be done onto you. So, Miss Nicole 7 AP classer got deferred to Harvard. She's alway been mean, and she always thinks she really smart. I feel bad for her because she lacks those social skills, yet I guess God was saying that she should be punished and that is the reaosn why she got deferred. I also hear that people who get accepted to Harvard and don't have the money to go are encouraged to put their houses up for collatoral. Is it really that necessary to got Harvard and after 4 years of your blood and sweat, you won't have a roof under you're head. Seriously, how many of those people become Fortune 500's anyways. It's not like you're guranteed to become a CEO of some mult-billion dollar company and you'll have you're face on Worth. It's not like you can gurantee that you'll have a place to live once you get a job because you'll be making 500,000 an hour. Sometimes, I really wonder how people of America manage there money. I'm not actually great with my, I actually then to let it just sit there, but at least I know that i'm not losing anything. It's true that the cautious never live their life, yet the brave can die early. It's just, I don't want to lose and why would anyone want to put up their house for a education. I mean, yes it's HARVARD, but there's other things in life then Harvard. These people who choose to put up their houses don't realize what's truly valuable in life, it's not where you get the education, but it's what education you get. Sure, if you graduate, or even make it out alive, Harvard will give you that great salary, but has it ever occured to people that it won't make you happy and I gurantee that you'll have high blood pressure.

I hope it doesn't snow tomorrow, but on Monday. Definitely looking up to that.

Goddess_333