No. 24

For the first time in my life I actually didn't get crap for Christmas. I got actual usable things or things I will use if I go on vacation to Thailand. Totally diggin' it, and Winnie ( as in Winnie the Pooh) got a bitchin' hat today. She was thoroughly excited. So, I have this theory in which all stuffed animals are girls even Winnie too. The only none girl stuffed animal I have is Sylvester the character from Warner Brothers, the reason being is he is way to manly to be a girl.

Very happy about Xmas. Got lovely things I wanted. This year I was being a brat and actually had a Christmas list, it was very helpful I may say. Usually I don't do Christmas lists because then it implies I want to so much and the how get only this and yada yada yada.

Today, when I was e-mailing some people, my best friend included, I realized something like an object had just fell on my head and I became an ill person. I realized that not only The new year is significant in just that it is the new year, but IT'S MY BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY! Being the stupid person that I am and completely brainless and only worrying about how society makes us buy gifts because we have to not because we want to, this is what happened! SHIT ON ME! So, tomorrow I will have to rush in with all the angry mobs of people trying to get half off some hideous sweater to try to find some gift while probably some inconsiderate salesperson will give me the evil eye.

On a lighter note, we're having lovely blue skies with beams of sunshine in all directions. Totally opposite from what's suppose to happen in Seattle.

Oh, back to this shit on me part, so does that make me an evil person. I'm the one who decided to send gifts back to my friends or close friends, just three in ML. I decided I would because I totally love them and know they're my real friends forever, but I didn't call them to say I got their gift and they don't call. So are they secretly trying to drop me, or have I finally found my life and am slowly backing away from my roots. I mean my roots are still growing as in my hair, but will I ever for get ML. I know I won't, but I just for got my best friend's birthday, we've been friends for at least a good 12 years and if not more, what does that say about me and what the fuck am I suppose to do with myself. I mean of course I'll get the gift, Fed Ex it or whatever, let it arrive, but what does that say about me, it says that I partially forgot, it says that i'm losing ground with my friends, it says what, the only true friends I have and now i'm being a idiot and screwing it up for me! What is happening, what will happen when everyone is in college. Is it gonna be like we never knew each other including my Bellevue people than for some reunion we'll be happy again then leave and start the cycle all over again? HELP ME BUDDHA!

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