No. 33

I feel kinda ughhhhh and I feel kinda heeeeeeeeeeeee. I don't know what's wrong with me, I think i'm getting paranoid. So, I was lying in bed yesterday or today, you know the time right after New Year's, so I had this sudden premonition, it was taht this year might not be terrific as I had gotten the premonition last year of a great year. Last year was a great year pretty much, it had it's ups and downs, but there were a lot of ups too you know. So, my paranoia has left to this, that I might not be able to go to Hawaii, College isn't what it's cracked up to be, and lastly, it's just going to be a shitty year. I have this theory that nothing will change once I hit College due to the fact that nothing different happened when I moved to a new town to start high school, the reason being is that we're always us and we don't change besides our surroundings. Today, it started raining heavily, I mean yes, I live in the Seattle area so it's not anything different, but we've been having record breaking sunny days, then my mom out of all the New Years says she wants to go to Crossroads, it's this shopping center and the whole place is shut down. So, we drove all the way across town, and what happened? Not a great sign, also I was looking forward to going to Half Price Books, which was closed. I also spent my New Year's completely alone in the computer room watching tv, well I wasn't completely alone, I was with Lucky, lucky is my FAO Schwarz St. Bernard dog, I think of her has a semi-person, but when you get down to the linguistics of it, I WAS ALONE, again. That's the reason why I think this year is going to be not a terrific fantastic year.

Goddess_333