No. 32

Ok, so everyone's making those New Year Resolutions and I kinda use to envision what I would to do too. I've decided nothing because I've realized that I can't be perfect and we can't all conform to be that 'one.' Anyways, doesn't our little querks make us special anyways? I've found that if I make New Year Resolutions either I don't stick with them, I feel bad when I don't achieve my goal or slip up, and sometimes I just do it because other people want me too. There is ony goal that I am going to achieve though, I have to achieve. I'm going to get skinny and look semi decent in a swimsuit. I am going to Hawaii hopefully and maybe Thailand, so I would like to be wearing something neat and hello, i'm going to be 18 then, i'll be on my senior trip and i'm not just planning on sitting on the beach reading Cosmo okay! Yea, so that is the one thing, the reason why I think i am fat is because well my parents love food and they're really into the 'good meal thing' which basically means anything good they're really to fork over any amount of money and we've never been wasters either, so you see how that can be a problem. Also, stick to the inner aisles of the supermarket and really should be sticking to the outside corners of it. I also should be eating more fruits and all that good stuff, but I realized when my parents buy fruit and it gets bruised, I get totally revolted and don't want to eat any of it, well because it just doesn't look appetizing. Maybe when I go to the dorms, I'll cherish fruit and other outer corner aisles because they're cheaper then the inner aisle foods. That is my main goal, the rest of myself has problems, but I kinda like it. I am also thinking of getting a Yoga book, so when i'm watching tv, )I have to muli-task or I get really bored) and may start to eat or read, then maybe I can work on my patience and not blow up at things like my father does, then maybe I won't have high blood pressure when i'm twenty!

Resolutions:
1. Thinness
2. Yoga?

I know I will be motivated to truly achieve this because I don't want to be flabby on the beach. For the yoga, let's see if i'm coordinated enough ok. Anyways, I feel good about those resolutions, even though all my teachers will be asking what is within yourself you want to change, seriously I would say nothing, it's what makes me unique and anyways, you're born like that and you've been influenced by so many people that think like you, it's extremely hard to change your personality. People who say they change their personality are just bullshitting because you haven't changed anything, you may have gained something, but you can never fully change everything!

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