No. 42

Song: Nickelback- How You Remind Me

So, I think something is definitely wrong with me. Well, for starters, everyone knows that I like Lance and he is mine and one day, you know, something will come of it. I just watched the "Girlfriend" video on TRL, can I say that they look like idiots. What the hell, that set must have caught them a mere penny. First of all, Justin and a African American? Joey is scene in the video once. Lance is with a blonde girl and JC is with a brunette? Where is Chris? I think the whole let's dance on the cars and have the audience watch is so over. What is the deal, they want to bring back that scruffy, motorcycle look, but we don't actually drive motorcycles? I don't quite understand, and as I was watching other videos on TRL, it's been a while you know. It looks like Britney's boobs are smaller and her abs are like, dear god, are they abs? What's with the pop culture, I embraced it and loved it, and now i'm suddenly revolted by it. Also, I was listening to VH1 and I totally enjoyed the songs, not just one of the songs, but a consective number of the songs. It was quite amazing, and I had to download Nickelback's song. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? Have I also gone from cutesy teen to a sudden grown up college prep? I must say that I don't like to wear sparkle tees now and I enjoy the nice rugby shirt? Oh dear buddha, please help me?

Another surprising thing, I'm in Contemporary World just watching this movie about China. Ms. Prissy, you know, Jewish Princess of Medina as in the city found locally in Bellevue ( and if you don't, it says it all). She put her feet on her desk. Our desks are in rows, so when I leaned back with my cream colored sweater, guess what happened? First thing to my mind was, "god, she has no class." What is wrong with me, when am I the one to judge that a person has no class. Actually I am, because I do know a bit about it and she doesn't and i've known that a long time. I also know that i'm fo sho gonna go to Hawaii. So, I told Ms. Prissy because she was like, "yea, I'm gonna go to Washington DC for my b-day. yada yada yada." She actually wants to go, i'm like, no you can because we have 8 people and everything's even, also it's just me and my ML homies and Dawn." I was thinking, who the fuck does she think she is, inviting herself to my very own senior trip? What the fuck, haha? I've never met a person like that before. I know she won't go, she says she has a friend down there, but I'd never want to vacation with her because well, Ms. Jewish Princess of Medina says it all, and it's not like she's rich or anything so that would at least get me some free perks, I found she's that type of Jewish person that is insanely cheap and she can't stop talking about the Jewish people. Apparently to her, it seems the Jewish people invented everything from soap to the world!

In the car yesterday with my mom, I told her I was totally excited about going and even though we're not staying in a wonderful hotel because well, I mean the ML people aren't actually that affluent, so I mean the one reason i'm gonna go is because it's the last chance to see them. We proceed to get into this whole disscusion about how people who have money, people who claim to have money, and people who don't have money and are totally fine with it. Well, it was quite odd, because the thing with me is that i'm very in the middle. I mean, I have a lot of money compared to my friends, but I don't hang out with people of my own financial status. I mean, i'm not condescending to the people who don't have money, I just some how find that the people who don't have money lead a more carefree and joyous life that seems to be more appealing to me. It seems whenever I see people with my own status, all they're into is their money or either they become total bitches and asses because money gives them the right? My cousin and are the same financial status, I love her, but I can't stand to be on the same level as her brain wise for a long period of time. It seems she never has anything to say, and if she does, it's about that cute top at Abercrombie and nothing more. It seems that with my peeps in ML that we talk about what's on TRL and all this junk like have you tried the new doritos? It's more refreshing, while in Bellevue, everyone probably thinks I'm totally poor or something. I mean, I get stuff on sale and all this, but at least I have class. They are totally unaware of my financial status, which is quite nice. I mean, I dress like the average person, but I don't have a total put together outfit that matches everything, so I'm totally blend. Also in Bellevue, once you're with a group, you're in and there's not joining or adding or subtracting. That's probably why I can't be friends with this other group, it's because they have a history with each other, and well, I don't.

So, people have been talking to me about colleges. I don't have to worry about having enough money to go to college, it's assumed that I go and I better damn well get honors and get my ass to law school. It's a given and that's that. Everyone has asked me that are you gonna go here, how much does it cost, do you have enough money to pay for it. That's like the second thing they ask when they ask what school and did you get in? It seems that everyone is powered by money, I don' t even have to tell them how much I enjoy the school or why I chose it. It's quite amusing. I have this theory, yes me and my theories brought to you by blogger. I don't care if anyone thinks I have money or not, it's clear and simple that you're not as bright and observant. If you think I don't have money and think my Rolex is a Folex, then more power to you. That means, I don't have to worry about you jacking my Rolex nor do I have to worry about you trying to bum a few bucks off me or trying to get something from me. That's my theory. I realized that some people are stupider and less observant than I am. I know i'm not the brightest of the brightest, but I know that I would not want to be in the working class simply because I just can't stand their logic behind their jobs. My example, I walk out of the elevator to the atheletic club, there's this lady folding clothes that works there, a man that is helping a lady buy some clothes that is half off. The computer seems to be on the brink, the man is so idioitic that instead of just taking my card, giving me a locker and towel, he has me waiting. The lady is still folding clothes. A simple task of 2 seconds, takes him 5 minutes to comprehend that maybe I should try to help this girl, while the computer is doing it's business. I finally get service, but during that time, I'm totally thinking, "this is the reason why I don't work here or anywhere else that deals with customer service. I mean, I'm happy that they are working there, because I totally believe in capitalism and if the working class wasn't there, I wouldn't be here. The thing is that I just don't understand how they can not think about quick and easy business. They like to wait and waste time, something I'm kinda against because well, I just think it's a waste. Buddha help me today!

What's wrong with me today, it seems all my values are totally warped?

Goddess_333