No. 4

Sitting here on a Saturday nite. I've never felt the bottomless pit of being along on the weekend. In a way, I kind of enjoy it. It's great to get away from all your peers. Some of them are quite nauseating I find and it's just great to get a way. It's kinda like when you go on vacation, you really don't want to see anyone you know there, because in a sense it's not like vacation. Today I bought this giantum mug from Pottery Barn. The people there are really not too bright, they can't really handle the cash registers. It's people like that that gives me motivation to go to college. I don't see my life when i'm 20 something getting up to go to the work at the mall! It's just me though, I have high standards for myself. Other people can be happy and after all "ignorance is bliss" so I'm glad if it makes them happy.

Back to Friday nite. So I have this person, she's not really my friend, yet I can't stop being nice to her if she is nice to me. Back in the day she called me her bestest even though afterwards she would call me a bitch because I wouldn't go to the bathroom with her. It wasn't like she needed me to wipe her ass for her. Well, she gets pissed off at the stupidest things and blames it on the wrong people. She tries to be all "in" with the prominent people at school and they blatantly ignore her, i.e. groupie. She's done everything material wise to become in, but it just makes her look like some freak. She thinks she's the Jewish Princess of all of the area we live in. It's rather patheic because she's lost a lot of friends and she thinks it's that person's fault and not her own personality. One day, she have realized the ephiphany and I don' t know what she will do? I feel sorry for her even though she's been so mean to me because she hasn't learned any of the life lessons that she should be learning. She still tries to hang with the cool people and than is left with no friends. Her biggest fear is having no friends and it's basically happening. Sometimes, I just don't understand how the human mind works, or at least one with that has some freak mental illness.

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